tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post7786974196904535209..comments2024-03-23T19:22:36.665-05:00Comments on Circling My Head: Times Three No. 13Reneehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11785932958464359112noreply@blogger.comBlogger102125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-43652806770183011772009-11-08T21:42:10.426-06:002009-11-08T21:42:10.426-06:00Renee, it is so hard to know what to say after suc...Renee, it is so hard to know what to say after such a heart rending post. You are not losers. Of course everyone has said that, but think of all you have given to us, your cyber friends. I have learnt so much from you about caring and giving and loving. I hope you and Jacquie believe that you are both winners. We love you. xxxxxBThttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16800917080090010655noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-65127483888819713852009-11-08T16:01:20.739-06:002009-11-08T16:01:20.739-06:00*kisses* You lead the way with ~Love~*kisses* You lead the way with ~Love~nollyposhhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13205974328143335552noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-2277014234092817342009-11-06T07:31:52.065-06:002009-11-06T07:31:52.065-06:00I might as well be on the other side of the moon, ...I might as well be on the other side of the moon, but in spirit I pray for you and your family each day, and if you can love someone you've never met, I love you, and if you can know someone simply by reading of their pain, sorrow, laughter, hope and faith, then I know you. And you never have to say "I'm fine."LDWatkinshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04066579509163543734noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-22209098581350902912009-11-06T01:00:52.693-06:002009-11-06T01:00:52.693-06:00(((hugging you)))
(((bowing to you)))
Renee, you...(((hugging you)))<br /><br />(((bowing to you)))<br /><br />Renee, your words are circling my head like lucid, loving angels ...<br /><br />You get inside our one human heart ... you recognize and affirm all that we all are ... and you tell a *wicked good* story!<br /><br />Namaste<br />Namaste<br />Namaste<br /><br />(... a variation on the theme of "Times Three") xoxo<br /><br />I'm going to print out your story and paste it into my journal and read, read, read it until I know it by heart.<br /><br />You ... Jacquie ... your family ... are sooo loved ...Jaliyahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02868006713291780694noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-31956451662759592712009-11-05T08:56:13.325-06:002009-11-05T08:56:13.325-06:00Dear Renee and Jacquie,
You are warriors. I care ...Dear Renee and Jacquie,<br />You are warriors. I care for you both. I send prayers of comfort to you. May today shine bright with glimmers of hope. On the other side of this crap is beauty. The kind of beauty only a person can recognize that has sailed through rough waters.<br />Love to you both.<br />Don't forget there is a person you've never met that prays for you and sends you light.<br />Your,<br />Constancerochambeauhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02142325813293645555noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-56593723792391447962009-11-05T06:47:03.840-06:002009-11-05T06:47:03.840-06:00Oh Renee, you explained something to me that I hav...Oh Renee, you explained something to me that I have wondered about for years. At the age of 18 I took care of my dying grandmother (breast cancer) and I never understood why she never complained. No matter how bad it got she always said that she was fine, I knew she wasn't but she insisted. A few days before she died we spent the day going thru catalogs ordering gifts all of her children and grand children- I think she knew that she wasn't going to be with us on Christmas day. After reading your post I finally understand why she said, "i'm just fine."<br />My love to you and Jacquee<br />xo-jjJavajunehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16831897209492381723noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-79427127938792930182009-11-05T01:14:32.067-06:002009-11-05T01:14:32.067-06:00Yes I know on some level what you say. When my son...Yes I know on some level what you say. When my son was diagnosed it was hard seeing my nieces and nephews go on with their lives knowing my child might have drawn the wrong hand in this pitiful game of life. You are however fortunate to have had your family, and your sister has you. <br />I have been on the other side too. Where you try to be there, help and ask. You hear and understand, but not really because it isn't you going through it. Perhaps I can see both sides of his coin and try to realize it is difficult. We don't learn anymore to hang in there, to come together. So few have empathy, and because they are able to walk away they do. Here in the U.S. where our own government doesn't care about you, where you can live next to someone for ten years and not know their names, where families live miles apart we have lost the ability to empathize and invest in another person. <br />i hear your anger, I know it. It doesn't just happen in these situations, it is just the light is on and you cannot pretend everyone is there for you, it goes on and you find out it was only shadows and you are in the room alone.<br />I do not know what you and Jacquie are going through, but you don't have to have cancer to feel the pain of being alone. I am glad she has you, and her children. I am truly happy she has had some good news to help get her through some of the bad. I am here, even though I am not close. I will write if it helps. I will answer the call if she just wants to vent, I will listen. I cannot promise I will always be able to stop everything right now, but what I can do I will. I wish that was enough, it is all I have.<br />I know part of the "I'm fine" response is ones attempt to assure another, perhaps is is because we are tired of telling, maybe it is because we tune into the other person and want to reassure them, when really we need it more. I dont' know the answer Renee, it seems older generations were better they understood the need for each other. Sadly I think we all have forgotten this. I am here for you, I am here and if you would pass on Jacquie's address I would be happy to write, send a card, just let her know someone thinks of her and knows.Willnnabelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03630465797431727224noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-74190613088915999792009-11-04T23:03:47.367-06:002009-11-04T23:03:47.367-06:00Hi again Renee! Thanks so much for your sweet mess...Hi again Renee! Thanks so much for your sweet message! Have a wonderful Thursday!<br /><br />Hugs,<br />Lisa :)Lisa Lectura Creationshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05767087922205455204noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-54779064495475304902009-11-04T22:50:39.319-06:002009-11-04T22:50:39.319-06:00There is so much truth and wisdom and heartfelt co...There is so much truth and wisdom and heartfelt compassion in all you say! I can so tell you've been through so much and yet you continue to fight! So admirable! This is what i mean when I say God allows things for a reason, we may not understand and even think its cruel, but I feel a sweet and compassionate heart who can be the light in someones bleak world, God has a purpose for you and for all your going through and it is not fair, but you have acquired great wisdom in your trials!<br />Thank you for your sweet words!God bless ! PattiAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08863574041065307401noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-74148849966404953812009-11-04T22:27:46.434-06:002009-11-04T22:27:46.434-06:00Thanks for dropping Renee:)
Sorry to be here late....Thanks for dropping Renee:)<br />Sorry to be here late.<br />I also don't like cancer but both my parents and many more friends & relatives passed away because of cancer.<br />I know how difficult it's with "C"<br />But you are always so brave. I salute you Renee. All my best wishes to you.<br />Happy day and it's still a day, sad day and it's still a day.<br />I hope the everyday is so special to you Renee.<br />You have so much to share and I always love your undying high spirit in everyday's life.<br /><br />Last but not least My prayers continue to be with you and Jacquie:)yoon seehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13829522216682862647noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-16587923214675881632009-11-04T20:24:56.468-06:002009-11-04T20:24:56.468-06:00Renee you are so right ... can't get off this ...Renee you are so right ... can't get off this damn road. <br /><br />I've just getting over a couple of grumpy days ... so am behind reading blogs.<br /><br />Hope you are well!Dariahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10806073037988154854noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-28060565884605081392009-11-04T19:49:32.811-06:002009-11-04T19:49:32.811-06:00God Renee.
I would do anything for my sister too....God Renee.<br /><br />I would do anything for my sister too.<br /><br />The only thing worse than being dealt a crap hand, is being unhelped or unheard. <br /><br />It's sometimes just too much. <br /><br />I'm sending everybit of love and strength to you and Jacquie. I'd send my cell phone number too, if it would help.<br />I love you both.Lori annhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02860428306713379828noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-65856252841587528082009-11-04T19:24:43.484-06:002009-11-04T19:24:43.484-06:00Renee..as always a honest and frank post about whe...Renee..as always a honest and frank post about where you are right now. It is your honesty & grace that draws folks to you. When I come here or email you about trivial crap..I know..you will speak truth to me. I love that..love it. It speaks volumes about your strength. You set the bar high hon..for those of us with out the beast that hides under your bed. Thank God for that! I am blessed to know you and learn strength and grace at you knee!! Hang in there hon and your sweet sis too!! I love you dearly and am pulling for you both from here!! Love, SarahSarah Sullivanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03835112406617937224noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-74522307480154984052009-11-04T18:29:53.617-06:002009-11-04T18:29:53.617-06:00Oh, Renee, thank you for this post. I am struggli...Oh, Renee, thank you for this post. I am struggling now with a very sick sister. I wanted to e-mail you and ask you, how do you do it? How do you go on when you feel sad and sick. You are such an inspiration to me....Really....truly.<br />Sometimes life is just hard and dealing with loved ones that are sick is the hardest. I think it is harder to watch other suffer than it is to suffer ourselves.<br />Well, Renee, you are loved, you are an inspiration and a treasure to us all. <br />Have courage, Renee. That's all we can do, hope and pray, be brave and keep putting one foot in front of the other.<br />I send baskets of love to you today!<br />Love,<br />Kelly<br />xxOOOOOOO :)TheChicGeekhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10781656678543589662noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-33629575262776677232009-11-04T18:00:04.214-06:002009-11-04T18:00:04.214-06:00So happy to hear that Jacquie has had some good ne...So happy to hear that Jacquie has had some good news in relation to her tumour. She certainly in a fighter and "braver than the bravest". Glad she was able to enjoy Halloween - it is these moments spent with family and loved ones that are the most precious of all. <br /><br />Still sending lots of prayers your way! Lisa x<br /><br />PS - Sarah advises on the use of baking paper when you are making your rice krispies - it works a treat:) You will never need to throw out a pan again.A Spoonful Of Sugarhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15518596278782483677noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-71972793168462547112009-11-04T17:43:28.713-06:002009-11-04T17:43:28.713-06:00I'm late boarding this boat but I'm hear a...I'm late boarding this boat but I'm hear all the same. I think my timing is actually perfect because today I was relaxed and able to read and focus on every word you wrote. <br /><br />All of them were important.<br /><br />I'm sending much love and light to you and yours.Stacey J. Warnerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08059617724860253448noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-103426803902512652009-11-04T17:43:20.686-06:002009-11-04T17:43:20.686-06:00I am unable to grasp the level of pain and trials ...I am unable to grasp the level of pain and trials your dear family has been through in such a short period of time. Please know that it is not empty words when I say that I think about you and pray for you. Your honesty in your writing is a gift to us all.Debbiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17480046958714954128noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-44266176748244445942009-11-04T17:32:57.423-06:002009-11-04T17:32:57.423-06:00Uphill, so much uphill and the ache in your calves...Uphill, so much uphill and the ache in your calves is daunting. I strive through your words and pull for you and those traveling up Mount Cancer. But with a flick of his finger, God can lay waste the tallest mountain. "He can move the mountains. My God is mighty to save. He is mighty to save." Praying He be mighty now...for you and Jacquie.Wine and Wordshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06778785233226804217noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-77855409908064741142009-11-04T17:21:47.976-06:002009-11-04T17:21:47.976-06:00I like to travel.
I am happy to journey down any r...I like to travel.<br />I am happy to journey down any road, especially roads that arent mine, I find such beautiful treasures and jewels waiting for me on the sides of those roads that others may perceive to be to dark to travel down safely or comfortably.<br />I am aware, VERY AWARE, that I am so extremely blessed to not be walking down the same road as you by virtue of non choice, but, and this is a big but, I am equally aware that at the drop of a hat, at the whim of a cell within my body I too could be joining you and Jacquie. So I do not walk away, I do answer phones, I do get up and do it even when my eyes are rolling in my head from lack of sleep and exhaustion because...."there but for the grace of God go I."<br /> <br />Having said that I truly believe that these things are not the act of God, but I do believe that God is with you every step of the way and sometimes he asks others to help him out cos he has so much to do. I am not scared of dark roads, late at night and I am not scared of the ugly side of cancer. The uglier life gets the more I smile and the more love i give out, cos that is the true weapon to fight anything ugly in our lives. <br /><br />Some people are scared of themselves I think, more than they are scared of your sickness, they are terrified to see the truth in the illness because they are terrified of living it themselves and not being as strong as you and Jacqui and Sheldon, of not being as full of grace as you all are. They are terrified of their own mortality and I believe that is what really keeps them away. Fear cripples people in so many ways each and every day.<br /><br />You are standing there facing your fear and screaming at it to back off and at the same time you scatter love everywhere you go. <br />That is what scares people even more than the thought that they could have to fight what you have to fight....it is this fear that cripples them into non action....what if they do have to face what you are facing and they find themselves lacking, what if they dont have the strength and courage and tenacity to stand up and scream back at the monster while still offering love to all who cross their path? <br /><br />What if? and FEAR are enemies of the soul, and you know what? The only thing that cures those two conditions is Love.<br />Ironic really, in order to be free those people just need to give selflessly of their love and they will be free from those fears. <br />If they actually gave they would be free.<br />But that is their journey and their thing to figure out, not mine and not yours :)<br /><br />I adore you, you are truly a sister of my heart. I am so blessed I found such wonderful jewels in you, Jacquie and Sheldon on my journey down your road. <br />From the bottom of my heart Renee, thank you for letting me join you on your road, I have learnt so much from all 3 of you, and you have all given me more than you could possibly know.<br />I love you with all my heart, Jacquie too and of course Sheldon.<br />xxmeAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-44715246723078086002009-11-04T17:04:25.308-06:002009-11-04T17:04:25.308-06:00So, let me get this straight, about people who are...So, let me get this straight, about people who are there during the height of the crisis and then disappear. Are you referring to in-the-flesh relationships or blog relationships, because you know me. I always have an opinion and I am not shy to share it with you.Ces Adoriohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17338000465619901229noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-87065684984407139862009-11-04T15:48:11.450-06:002009-11-04T15:48:11.450-06:00Renee, you continually touch my heart. I am so to...Renee, you continually touch my heart. I am so touched by the love your family has for each other and the length they go to be there in what ever way. Your strength is awesome. <br /><br />You have the ability to put to words, so much of what I feel and can not express. The phone is much quieter that it was four years ago. People do not ask "how are you doing?" because they are tired of hearing the same answer.<br /><br />Cancer, I believe, is not for the faint. It takes a lot of courage to get up, every day, faced with this devil of a disease.<br /><br />I have not met your sister Jacquie, yet, I see her strength through your words. Don't figure, she is your sister. Two very powerful women! <br /><br />Much love, NoreenNoreenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15772687191686046793noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-17088992368965379802009-11-04T15:45:55.603-06:002009-11-04T15:45:55.603-06:00Oh Renee, I am at a loss for words. You are an inc...Oh Renee, I am at a loss for words. You are an incredible person and find strength enough for every hurdle you face. You and Jacquie are so strong together.Sending my love to you both. Tell Jacquie,I gave enemas too. What a thing to have in common. Love, BarbAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-34941139118339719632009-11-04T14:21:50.614-06:002009-11-04T14:21:50.614-06:00I have only just found your blog and may I say tha...I have only just found your blog and may I say that not only your entries touch me yet also the comments left by others.... Such a magical place.... There are blessings and beauty even in the most dismal of places.... You are such proof of that... I truly feel blessed for having found this treasure today...Mother Moonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04766732525579692530noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-74752464101685818052009-11-04T13:52:26.080-06:002009-11-04T13:52:26.080-06:00cancer is such bullshit. my heart goes out to you...cancer is such bullshit. my heart goes out to you and to jacquie. and i hope things get a lot better for both of you soon. it just isn't fair. i know that statement is stupid and childish, but cancer is just bullshit.drollgirlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17098844996589898590noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6388558870650514383.post-64630865539233624572009-11-04T13:50:20.024-06:002009-11-04T13:50:20.024-06:00Renee I know what you mean about needing people. I...Renee I know what you mean about needing people. It's like when you lose a loved one, people come out of the woodwork with offers of help and sustenance then as time goes by they dwindle, they expect you to 'get over it' and move on so when you need their support most, they are few and far between. As for the response 'fine' I do it all the time because you're right 99% of people are absorbed, they don't care. I wish people wouldn't ask frankly. You are fortunate to have each other and the ties that bind. I so wish I was closer to help make life a little easier but I'm not. If I lived in the US or Canada, I'd be up there in a flash to cook your meals and clean your house and make sure you had some 'me' time. Feel free to unload at any time, you know where to find me and for goodness sakes, don't take it ALL upon yourself. Don't be afraid to ask for help.Bainohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14156193098088048637noreply@blogger.com