Renée Khan (née Ste. Marie)
(March 28, 1956-March 9, 2010)
It is with deep sadness that we who loved her most announce the passing of my wife and our mother.
Renée is survived by her dearest husband and companion of 35 years Nizam Khan; her much loved and adored children Angélique St-Hilaire (Don); Nadalene Cooper (Charlton); Nathan Khan and her joy-filled grandchildren Joséphine and Domenic St-Hilaire. She also leaves to mourn her siblings, nieces and nephews.
Renée’s life work was her children. She often said she loved no one more than them. Renée raised her children in a loving and happy home. Renée encouraged her children to share their lives with her and she listened with devotion.
Renée loved her dearest husband, her children and grandchildren, family and friends, Christmas, reading books, drinking tea, watching blizzards, smelling flowers, writing her blog, listening to music, catching fairies, and admiring the sky.
Renée’s strong faith gave her strength. She gave all she could and more.
We would like to thank all of the angels who have helped my wife and our mother. A special thanks to Dr. Grenier and to the group of women who have travelled this difficult path with her. We would also like to thank her dear siblings and sister in-law for their love, support and care for her and us throughout her journey and her last days. Finally, we would like to thank the staff at St. Boniface Hospital (6E) for their care.
Farewell Dear Hearts
Wahid, Angélique, Nadalene, Nathan
I love you my family and even though I have passed I am taking a piece of you all with me because I can’t bear to be without you, even at the last. Love one another for my sake and even in the tough times be there for each other. And you will see me in each other’s faces and hear me in each other’s words. You have made all of this worth it for me.
Love Mom xoxo
“There are things that we don’t want to happen but have to accept, things we don’t want to know but have to learn, and people we can’t live without but have to let go.”
203 comments:
1 – 200 of 203 Newer› Newest»Thank you for posting this...I miss her so much, but I know it's nothing compared to your intimate relationship, and your loss. You have my love and prayers. I will always be thankful that I had the privilege and blessing of knowing Renee through this blog.
Thank you for sharing with us. XOXOXOXOXO
God Bless you All...With Much Love and prayers....xxxxxxx
What a beautiful tribute to Renee. I know she would have loved it. I still have you all in my prayers and thoughts. Renee, I carry her close to my heart ever day, always. A more precious, loving, giving friend I have never had. Love & Blessings...
Oh how terribly sad... She will be missed.
My prayers are with your family, Renée.
Always,
Ellie Grace
I'm crying as you would expect and thinking of Renee and all that she shared.
Renee will continue to share as we all carry her in our hearts.
Thank you again for making the time to keep us all informed.
You are a very special and much loved family.
Thank you
much love
Ribbon xoxoxoxo
Dear family of Renee, this is such a beautiful obituary. She approves. Renee has given so much through her words of wisdom and I am ever grateful for having known her through her blog. There will be times when I shall revisit her words here at Circling My Head and I know others shall also visit. Thank you dear ones for sharing this wonderful woman with us all. She is missed. Much love, Cheryl Cato @ Lizzy Frizzfrock
Dear Family~
Even as I cry reading this, I cannot help but smile feeling the love shining forth as I look at Renee's picture. Thank you for sharing this with us just as she shared herself with each of us through her blog.
Many Hugs,
Donna
I am so sorry for your loss
I send you all my deepest sympathy....I cried when I read this and also have faith that we will all meet again....the last quote really helped too...
“There are things that we don’t want to happen but have to accept, things we don’t want to know but have to learn, and people we can’t live without but have to let go.”
Always know that Renee will be remembered and treasured as a friend to many of us...she will remain an inspiration and I will think of her always...she has opened my eyes to seeing more beauty around me and I love her for that....
Bless you all and know that I send you my prayers and my thoughts...
Hugs
Diana
Thank you so very much for posting this! It was just beautiful! She is loved and will remain in our hearts forever!
Sending love, prayers and hugs to all of you during this painful time! Hugs and Love, Sarah
Thank you for posting this and the beautiful photo of dear Renee. I will miss her so much -- her words, her art, her bravery, her connection to all that is good. May your entire family be comforted during this time of terrible loss and may your memories of her sustain you. Blessings to all of you. xoxoxo
I'm so sorry for the pain of parting you are feeling now. It's so hard to think that we won't hear from our Renee again. Her amazing capacity for love is a treasure we all share. I cherish the gift she was and will hold her forever in my heart. And I pray for peace for all of you, her wonderful and beloved family.
I am so happy to have known Renee , even if only for a brief time and I plan to keep a piece of her with me always. Love to all of you .
A beautiful and fitting tribute to a wonderful woman. Blessings and hearts ease to you all.
Thank you for letting her online community read this. I remember that Renee's birhtday would fall on Palm Sunday this year...how fitting...we know that she will ha already been welcomed with eternal joy..like the joy she brought to everyone.
Again you are all in our prayers.
What a beautiful tribute to an amazing woman. Renee will live on through all of you, and through all the people she has touched with her words.
She will never be forgotten
xoxo
betty
I had thought she was a few years older. God, but I am sorry for her passing.
What a beautiful photo that is of Renee - a wonderful obituary too. Wishing you all much strength in the coming weeks. Renee was so very special.
Oh beautiful, beautiful soul ... what a gift you have been ... pure and radiant kindness.
Dear family ... what can I say but Thank You ... Many hearts are with you in your mourning ...
I met Renée through our blogs about a year ago ... I see now that we share a birthday. I will mark it on my calendar, and will always celebrate her life on March 28th!
Blessings and love,
Jaliya
Renee was an angel among all of us who were blessed enough to know her and to read her words. Shes such an inspiration, such a loving beautiful amazing soul. She is still our angel.
my heart and love go out to all of you.
xoxo
k
www.heartwingsisters.blogspot.com
Thank you for sharing this.
Beaming love to you all xoxo
Dear Family,
I only knew Renee for less than a year, and was touched by her in that short time more than I could tell you. Nor could I tell you exactly why, but I think a lot of it is that she was,,and is the person that many of us would aspire to be.
I'm sure you know this even better than we do.
Thank you for sharing this beautiful woman with us, and for sharing this obituary.
God be with all of you, as you struggle to heal from this huge loss.My prayers continue to go up,,for each of you.
See you later, Sweet Renee.
Thank you for sharing this, Renee has touched so many of our hearts.
I'll see you again darling Renee, there's no doubt in my mind.
Many hugs,
Bailey xoxo
I cannot in words convey the sadness this loss has brought to me. Your mother was a beautiful soul whom even death could not crush or diminish. I was lucky enough to have been touched by her kindness and lifted up by her support and friendship. I will miss her.
It was always evident that her family was most important in her life, and how much you all meant to her. I am deeply sorry for your loss, but know she will always be with you. God bless.
Thank you for posting this, Renee will be missed by many!!
Micki x
I didn't have the privilege of knowing this wonderful lady but, after reading some of the comments put by some bloggers that I do know, well it is my loss that I never had the pleasure of chatting to Renee.
I cannot begin to imagine how all her loving family are going to adjust - does one ever really truly adjust. One just copes as one can and thinks often of the lovely memories left behind.
I never got to meet Renee in person and only met her through the lovely and generous comments she left on my own page. Through them I followed her back here and fell in love with her beautiful and caring spirit. She was a wonderful treasure, an angel that touched many lives and she will be deeply missed by many. I am truly grateful for the priviledge I had of having her touch my life. God bless you all. xxoo
My deepest sympathies and respect.
A'isha & Cimo
Renee, how beautiful her face shines and how her eyes glow with purity.
This is the best photo and can see Renee in all of you and how you are so pretty and handsome.
I miss her more each day and can only imagine how she will be deeply missed by the ones who are close.
So much love to you all!
Julie
ps. now I have to go back and reread everything that made my head spin.
I just realized that, all this time, I have been confused.
I was in touch with Renee several times via email. I am not good with names, so I got confused when reading about "your mother" -- I did not realize who "your mother" was; that it was Renee.
I am reacting late, but my stomach is on the floor and the tears are falling from my eyes.
I, too, have stage IV, and I was so impressed by the life that exhuded from Renee and her blog.
I will miss writing to her. Now I understand why she hasn't written back in a while.
May her memory be a blessing!
Love, hugs and comfort to this wonderful family of one of the world's most spectacular women! She had touched so many so deeply. Thank you for posting this lovely tribute to Renee, one of the most beautiful women I've ever run across, though far too brief a meeting with her than I would have liked. She touched everyone she met, whether in person or online. She truly had a gift for making others feel good & warm & fuzzy! We pour out our love to you all, friends & family of Renee, in this most difficult time. Blessings to you, and may you find comfort and peace. Love & hugs.
Thank you for posting this. I loved Renee, like all of us here, who came to visit with her, and read her words. She gave so much to us, and her love of her family came through loud and strong. I will cherish the memory of Renee Khan all my life. My deepest sympathy to you in this time of such great loss. Much love - Pam
What a wonderful tribute, to a wonderful person, who was such a special soul, heres one of the last pots she left me, encouraging as usual;
("Of course your art would sell it is wonderful.
Renee xoxo")
That is the kind of person she was and you as a family should be very proud of how many peoples lives Renee touched . you are in my prayers
to wahid and everyone in renee's family.my sincerest condolences at this time. your faith and love of one another will keep you strong and renee will be with each and every one of you every single day.
miss you lots renee.xxxxxxx
Renee bestowed a lot of love to me, right here in her blog, and in mine. I feel our souls touched.
Rumi wrote:
"Before death takes away what you are given,
give away what is there to give.
No dead person grieves for his death. He mourns only what
he didn't do. Wy did I wait? Why did I not . . . ? Why did I
neglect to . . . ?
I cannot think of better advice to send. I hope you like it.
May you stay in your infinity.
Peace."
Renee gave away what was in her to give. Bless her. Bless all of you.
I cannot imagine the pain you must all be going through. I send my love to you. And my gratitude. Thank you for sharing your darling wife, mother, sister, grandmother with us. Renee was a gift to us all; she made us better people. I miss her.
may she rise with the angels..
A beautiful tribute and so lovely to hear her voice again through her words to you, her precious family. Thinking of you all and knowing your hearts are aching. Lots of love to you.
xxx
I am so sorry that Renee has gone. You are all so brave. It sounds like she was a truly loving person and gave much to you all. Love continues. So many wonderful memories. Blessings
This is heartbreaking, but I'm so glad she has a family who loves, respects, and adores her...to carry on and take her with you through the years.
RIP Renee.
Much love to you all.
Thank you for sharing your beloved Renee with us, she will be an inspiration to me always.
That was beautiful. Please accept my condolences.
Mary
Thank you for posting this farewell. I cried when I read her note to the family. How like her to make sure she told everyone how she felt before she departed. I'm sure you all sat at her side telling her how much you loved her as well.
The way she touched the lives of those whose paths she crossed was nothing short of a miracle. In blogging about her illness, she went on to help countless others in their struggles which in turn brought strength to her so she could continue her 'ministry.'
The only difference from who she was then to who she is now is that she finally has her wings.
I miss her deeply and will be forever grateful that I knew her at all, no matter how short the time was.
Wishing you comfort in your memories of her, and eventually, peace in your hearts.
Love,
Laurel
xoxo ♥
Much love to all of you.
What a beautiful tribute to a amazing woman. My thoughts and prayers are with you all.
~ Carolee
Thank you for posting this beautiful and loving tribute.
Good bye, darling Renee. I miss you.
Hugs and love to you all.
xoxoxo
Angela
An extraordinary angel - in life and beyond! I am honored to have shared a tiny bit of her life with her! Sending you all my love and strength! Silke
I found Renees blog by chance and quickly fell in love with it... It truly touched me in a manner that will change me forever, thank you so much for sharing her story with us. It truly is a story of love.
Thank you so much for sharing this with us. Renee will always be remembered and loved. My heart goes out to her family and you are in my prayers. Love and hugs,Lynda
Thank you sharing this beautiful post with us! Holding you all in my thoughts and prayers. She will be missed.
Debby
I am so sorry for your loss my heart is with you and your family.
To Renee's family:
I would like to extend my sympathy to all of you. Renee was (and it pains me to use that verb in the past) a remarkable woman. I would like to pay my own tribute on my blog, a space Renee visited many times and in which she left a deep mark, one that will never be erased. My post will come out next Sunday 21st March, 10am GB time and I would like you, Renee's family, to grant me permission to post it. I would also like you, fellow bloggers, to suggest a link to a breast cancer website that I could put at the top of my blog. It's the least I can do to honour the memory of someone so loved, not just by her family but also by her online friends. Someone who spread so much goodwill wherever she went.
Many thanks for this deeply touching obituary. My thoughts are with you all.
Good bye Dearest Renee...Rest In Peace :(
Dear Angelique, Dear Wahid, Dear Jacquie and all your wonderful family,
Renee's words (as always) filled me with such strength and courage and a vision of happiness and love - and hope for a future one day - when all shall meet again.
Wahid - thank you for sharing this beautiful, heart-felt obituary with Renee's blogging family. Thank you for including us. We cannot imagine the heartache you are going through.... sharing life with Renee for 35 years - what a wonderful and meaningful adenture the two of you had.
Renee is not gone - she lives inside you - as indeed you all stil live within her spirit.
She is greatly missed...
My prayers go out to you all.
Love,
♥ Robin ♥
God bless you all in your time of sorrow, my heart goes out to you all.
Thank you for posting this tender and loving tribute. She has left a gap in my heart that cannot be, nor ever will be, filled. My thoughts and prayers, along with wishes for strength and healing, are with you.
xoxoxo
bella
That was absolutely wonderful and so her. If ever you need anything please feel free to contact me. Tell Jacquie to contact me also if she likes. She loved you all sooooo much. Her husband was her world. She always talked with love about yall. I am here if you ever need a shoulder, please never feel as u cant. My email should be in you Mom's email account. if not my email is soniaartist2006@gmail.com
xoxoxoxoxoxoxxo
Such a lovely tribute, such a profound loss. Her Love, Life and Spirit blessed many... and in her passing from one realm to another her journey is not alone for she is gently wrapped in the comforting arms of those that loved her ... for evermore.
What a beautiful tribute. Thank you for sharing this and her words to you. Sending love and thanks for allowing us all to be a part of your love for each other.
What a lovely tribute for such a special and loved woman, she was such an inspiration and I will always keep her in my heart.
God Bless you all in this time of loss and beyond.
SuZi
thank you for this dear one, we miss Renee so very much! please know that you all remain in my prayers!
Thank you so much for posting this. You Mom was such a beautiful woman, both inside and out, and your words immortalize her in such a good way.
I am so very sorry for your loss, but I know that her love and values will live on in all of you.
Love audrey
xoxoxo
What a beautiful tribute. Thanks so much for allowing us to hear it. She will be missed. Beautiful Renee.
Thank you for posting. I miss her very much. I will have her in my heart always. Renee would be happy that we go on, but we will never forget her or your family. Thank you very much for sharing your MOM with us. God Bless You All.
Love, gloria
So beautiful, just like Renee. I cannot begin to imagine your loss, and I am so very sorry. You probably cannot even breathe right now without pain. My wish is that those of us who loved Renee through her blog, that our tears may somehow lighten your the weight...that we may carry some of the grief so that you may breathe.
It is so easy to say that we believe in the Resurrection and another thing altogether to be called to stand in that faith. But stand we must, for it is the very Truth of God.
By The David Crowder Band:
Lord I'm tired
So tired from walking
And Lord I'm so alone
And Lord the dark
Is creeping in
Creeping up
To swallow me
I think I'll stop
Rest here a while
And didn't You see me cry'n?
And didn't You hear me call Your name?
Wasn't it You I gave my heart to?
I wish You'd remember
Where you sat it down
And this is all that I can say right now
And this is all that I can give
I didn't notice You were standing here
I didn't know that
That was You holding me
I didn't notice You were cry'n too
I didn't know that
That was You washing my feet.
May the Peace of Christ be with you. All my love, Deb
Such a beautiful tribute for an absolutely amazing woman. She will be missed by so many. Renee sent me an angel card last year and I look at it daily. I feel like it's her looking down and smiling.
My prayers are with all of you.
xo
Oh bless you for taking the time to share with us.
She humbles. Truly.
She is as beautiful inside and out as ever a soul can be.
I am crying but letting go of someone who graced my life for only a short while, but will be forever weaved into it .
peace and comfort to you all ,
I don't know what your decision will be regarding this blog, but I will revisit it as sacred space for as long as I am able.
love to you.
Thank you so much for posting this. It's quite beautiful and tells people about how amazing your mom, sister, wife, friend was in this world.
I think of you all often and want you to know this.
I miss Renee more than possible.
Take care dear ones~
Love~Pattee
Renee was so precious. Still is. How can such a strong and beauitful presence ever be removed from hearts she touched?
Blessings to you, her family.
What a wonderful post. Your (our) dear Renee has changed this world for the better. Thank you for sharing your angel with all of us. She will forever remain in my heart.
Love and prayers to all of you, her loved family...
Sincerely,
Kelly
I never not will forget Renee's last comment in my blog -
"Merry Christmas Jenea.
Love Renee xoxo"
We are all missing Renee and share in your loss. Although I only knew her through her blog for the past 15 months or so I truly felt part of your lives. She often came to my blog and commented and I did treasure that interaction between the two of us. I miss her smile her wit and all the beautiful art.
Wishing there was more comfort I could offer you just know that she touched many hearts and we all miss her.
Much Love,
Kate in Idaho
Thank you for posting this lovely tribute to a very beautiful lady.
My thoughts are with all of you. I know the hole that I feel in my heart with Renee's passing and can only imagine the huge loss that you all feel.
A beautiful lady, a beautiful soul.
Love to all
Sue
I am very saddened to hear of your loss...you are in my prayers...
Thank you so much for posting this...it's such a love filled tribute.
Renee is very, very much missed by all of us whom she touched.
Sending much love.
My thoughts and prayers are with all of the people connected with this beautiful lady. My candles will be lit today, in her honor.
A wonderful tribute to Renee who I shall miss very much. She was a very kind lady.
I run a weekly interview column and it is such a shame Renee was too ill to feature. However I left a little tribute to her at the end of my last one.
http://eddybluelights.blogspot.com/2010/03/sunday-roast_13.html
May God Bless her.
Thank you so much for posting this. Such a beautiful piece, I am moved to free flowing tears. What a wonderful joy it was to know Renee, even thinking about your pain right now is heartbreaking.You are an amazing family and I am so very sorry for your loss.
Thinking of you at this time,
Claire.xo
A beautiful tribute to an absolutely beautiful woman...My heart is with you and your entire family...Your loss is very great!!! You will remain in my prayers in the coming weeks and months!!! Love to you and your family! Janine
You have constructed a wonderful tribute to the person you loved. Well done.
I only knew her, from this blog, for a short while. However, she was kind, gracious, and loving, in all that I was able to see and in all that she shared.
May God bless you all now as He did when He gifted you with her.
Thank you so much for posting this. I am so sorry for all of your hurting hearts and mine too!
Your mom and wife was a very special woman and I am so glad I got to be a very small part of her short life.
I will never forget her.
Love and huge hugs to you all.
I will keep you all in my heart.
What a great picture of Renee, she is so beautiful.
My heart goes out to her family. I know she is with the angels.
Much love,
B x
A beautiful tribute, rest in peace Renee.
Renee's compassion reached out all the way across oceans, seas, and continents .. I imagine her soul as light, as white, as fragrant as jasmins; and just as memorable.
May she rest in peace, and may God grant you the strength and patience to cope with the loss.
What a beautiful tribute to your wife/mom/sister. Thanks for sharing it with us. And how very much like Renee to write you that note before she passed.
I feel so privileged to have known Renee through her blog. She was truly one of a kind--so strong and brave and full of love for her family and friends. And I feel as though I have come to know all of you too, from the beautiful posts she would write about you. You are truly blessed to have such an awesome family.
Now it is dear Jacquie I am praying for. As hard as this is for all of you, I'm thinking it must even more so for her. I am praying for a miracle for her, and even though it can hardly seem conceivable at this moment in time, I'm praying that something beautiful comes out of all this great sadness.
Beautiful. Sending love and hugs to the whole family. We will all miss her always.
xoxo
Good-bye Renee ... you will not be soon forgotten.
beautiful beautiful people
much love,
xo
erin
My heart aches for you. God Bless.
What a fitting tribute to a wonderful woman who "loved" with every fiber of her being.
She was an example to us all, for what we should aspire to become.
It was an honor to be touched by her. Thank you for letting her share her love with the rest of us. She sure had plenty to go around!
Love & Blessing to you all!
Thank you for this. I will miss her very much. My prayers and thoughts go out to the family.
Thank you for sharing.
Love and Prayers,
Katelen
Thank you for posting this beautiful tribute to dear Renee.
She will always be remembered and treasured and was such a remarkable lady.
I still have her last note she left me ~ I am sending you cool Canadian breezes sweet friend. Love Renee xo
I hope that as the days pass, your wonderful memories of Renee, will overtake the overwhelming heartbreak.
Sending my sincere condolences, and you are very much in my thoughts and prayers.
Hugs
Carolyn
Run Free Renee.
Ah that dearest darling friend of ours - rearranged the heart of everyone to whom she has spoken. I am still trying to calm down mine and like what Bella said, there is a permanent gap that only the memory of her love can fill.
Dear Family Of Renee, This is a beautiful tribute for a beautiful soul. I never got to meet Renee in person but I was drawn each day to her inspiring and heartfelt posts. I hope you accept this in the loving spirit in which it is given. I wanted to tell you that in thinking over why so many people responded to Renee and love her so without many of us even meeting her is that she gave us two very important life lessons. One is how to live life in the fullest even with extreme hardships/difficulties. The 2nd life lesson- How to die with love self-respect and dignity. The majority of people I know, myself included, would have difficulty just getting out of bed and not wallowing in sadness and self- pity. There isn't a handbook to follow when life hands you cards to play out with the joker or bats that tell you your time in the game will be cut very short. I know Renee would have rather not been the instructor for showing us how to play the hand life deals us. I wish that too. But I personally learned so much from the way she lived and died. She is a blessing that will not be forgotten. Thank You Renee Love.
wahid, i will send you more blog posts and you and your children can rejoice in all the love that surrounds your beloved renee.
to you wahid, to anglique, nadeline, nathan, jacquie, josephine, domenic, sisters and brothers, friends near and far: renee is one of a kind. she somehow stopped by the hearts of hundreds and took residence there. she TRANSFORMED. like so many others, i will carry renee's love and wisdom with me for all of my life.
i cannot lessen the pain of your great loss, but i hope you believe you will see your beloved renee again and again. she will seek you out and she will love you as she always has. she knows how to do that.
with love always,
kj
Peace be with you all. I didn't know Renee, but read her blog faithfully. I am very saddened by her passing. I send Prayers to all her family.
You are incredible to have to the strength to post this. I thank you.
.....hugs
Thank you for sharing this beautiful tribute. I only knew your mom for a moment but she really touched my heart. My thoughts are with all of you. x
It is a special moment in a life time when paths cross and we meet someone who fills us with hope and inspires us.
Renee was a wonderful woman and I feel privileged to have met her albeit only on line. We exchanged e mails outside this blog and she was such a caring person, one who I will never forget.
Her love for her family was so evident and her words always made me think. She had the power to connect, the amount of friends who visited here are testimony to that.
I feel this great sense of sadness so cannot begin to imagine how the family must be feeling.
I want to give you all a hug and I know that you will live by the final words of your mum,wife,sibling, aunt expressed in this post.
One day I will meet Renee and it will be an honour to do so
Bless you all in your time of loss.
Much love xxxx
What a beautiful tribute. I wish you all strength and peace. Renee will be missed not only by her family and close friends, but also by those of us whom she touched without us ever having met her, though we live many, many miles away.
Renee is one special lady!
I am thinking of you and your family and sending prayers. We all miss her terribly - she touched so many people.
She was obviously a loving and talented person, I am sorry I will not know her.
You all are in my thoughts and prayers.
Such a beautiful woman, inside and out. I'll miss her so much, but I know she's not in pain anymore. She'll always be deep in my heart.Thank you for posting this amazing tribute to this amazing woman.
All my love and sympathy,
CarolineH
I am so very sorry for your loss !!!
I wish I'd known her better...
touched for a very short time....
Thank you so much for posting this. Your tribute and Renee's last wishes were so amazing, it took me until now to fully process them. I miss her greatly, and I am sure what I feel is just a drop in the ocean of what you as her family are going through. Thank you so much for sharing her last moments with us just as she has shared her journey with us thus far. My heart is still filled with sadness, but getting to know her and you guys has been so rewarding.
I wrote about Renee on my blog:
http://geishaschooldropout.typepad.com/geisha_school_dropout/2010/03/into-the-sun.html
She found us through the great wild jungle of the Internet, so I have no doubt she will find us all again. :)
Renee is far more beautiful than I have ever imagined. I miss her terribly. Thank you for posting this.
My prayers are with you and your family.
XOXOXO
Björnik
I just said a prayer for her.
love and peace....
I am so sad . . . please know that Renee is still here, watching over you all, loving you all . . . she will never be far away from you. God Bless you all . . .
Dear Angelique, Wahid, Jacquie and Family,
Just want to send you all love and strength as you begin your first week without Renee's physical presence.
I don't have to reiterate how special this amazing was - and will ever be.
San Francisco, after months of rain and wind, is experiencing Springtime....cherry blossoms blooming - as well as my jasmine...
Springtime is the season of
re-birth, renewal and hope... Renee lives still....and I know you know this.
My thoughts are with you - and with her.... I miss her so..
Love to all,
♥ Robin ♥
So sorry for your lose. What a beautiful obituary. I didn't know Renee but have been reading her blog for a while now.
my deep sympathy and prayers.
A beautiful tribute to a truly beautiful soul. My love to all of you as you mourn the loss of a woman who seemed to have an endless capacity for love. The world was truly blessed by her presence.
I'll miss a lot to read Renee's post here on the net, she was a sweet heart and she had good words for everyone. I'll remember her in my prayers and will never forget her.
Loredana (from Italy)
When thinking of Renee's passing what frequently occurs to me is, I never got to tell her I was pregnant. And how I wanted to share that news with here. I also regret that I was absent from blogland for so long during the holidays. It was my last time to spend with her. She even came "looking for me". Just checking in with me to make sure I was okay. I will always regret that...
What comforts me now is that if I could tell her this, if I could say I'm sorry I wasn't there at the last, I know just what she'd say, That's okay dear Jamie. We all know what you were busy doing over the holiday! Hardy har har xoxo
This year I will go to Las Vegas again, just like last year. The year Renee's sisters tried to get her to go. But she couldn't because of that monster under her bed. Oh how I understood that...even though my monster was created out of different circumstances. Here's something I typed up but for some reason, I never did share with her. She was always able to be so open and real and she was never afraid of people knowing who the real Renee was. I loved that about her.
3/29/2009
I have wanted to share the following with you since I read your Vegas post. It struck a chord with me. I'd just gone and you left me a comment asking whether I was back or not and all the while you're struggling with your decision about whether or not you could/should go. At first I wanted to tell you that you had to go, no matter what. Just like I HAVE to when I'm afraid but then I realized it's not the same, my afraid and your afraid. Here's how I look at it:
I have a monster under my bed, too
he isn't like yours
he didn't happen to me
I think I created mine
In theory I should be able to destroy him
but I cannot
he follows me, too
somedays, I'm lucky enough to sneak out of bed without him
somedays are better than others
somedays I manage not to listen when he wispers fear in my ears and doubt in my soul and hatred in my heart
but, oh other days, those other days
I am powerless against him
today isn't one of those days
today I escaped but I know he'll find me again soon
I'll do something brave today because when he finds me I won't be able to
I'll be happy today because when he find me I can't feel that way
I'll love myself today and the things about me that make me, me because when he finds me I'll hate me again
I have a monster under my bed
he didn't happen to me
I created mine
I wonder where he'll be hiding tomorrow
This year, just like the last, I will carry Renee with me to Vegas...I will carry her in my heart...
...here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
ee cummings
Love,
Jamie
Bless you all beautiful Khan family. Thank you for caring so much to share here with us. I loved Renee.
Peace and Love to all of you,
lori
Such a beautiful woman. We will miss her and thank you for sharing her with us!
What a lovely tribute to an amazing lady. Jacquie, we knew this day would come but it doesn't make it any easier. I will be there for you when you are ready. Barb
Renee has many many more friends
than she may know,
her heart filled courage
spread wider than the world.
Thankyou for this lovely post.
Beautiful... I was always impressed with her ability to take the time to make each and every one feel loved and special, while going through such an impossibly tough time herself. Renee was such an amazing woman- she has made an everlasting impression on my heart.
Thank you for taking the time to keep us all informed, and for posting her obituary.
Much love to you all-
LaWatha
The more time that passes, the more ways I realize just how deeply Renee has touched me. As I move through my home I become fully aware of her generosity and presence scattered through out the rooms. In very short time we had truly become intertwined - miles apart, never to meet, a deep friendship evolved. Amazing Renee did this again and again with so many of us - her energy and generosity had no bounds when it came to creating true friendships. What a gift. The beauty is the gift is, is that it keeps giving - I continue to feel the blessings of Renee's love and care. She inspires me daily, strengthens me as I fight my own battle with breast cancer. I love more deeply, laugh more fully, and see more beauty in the world because of Renee having been a part of it. With love,
for Renee
An obituary that is perfection. Indeed, Renee is still walking among us because she touched so many people with her love...her family, her close friends, and bloggers around the globe.
We will miss your voice here on the blogosphere Renee, but your presence will always be with us.
Beautiful tribute of a wonderful wife, mother, grandmother, sister, aunt and friend.
Renee will be missed by all who had the privilege of knowing her.
Rest in peace my friend. Noreen
Hey Lovee. I miss you. I won't forget. I feel you guiding my every decision simply by the truth that you lived and loved well. And Jacquie, I miss hearing about you. All my love to you, Deb
Renee always found comfort in art and words and sharing them with us bloggers from all over, She is a unique soul. Thank you for sharing your words with us today. They are so deeply appreciated. She is so loved.
My sadness is endless. Orly
I am so sorry for your pain and loss of Renee. thank you for posting this. She is and will continue to be an inspiration to me.
My heart connects to you Wahid, Angelique, Nathan, Josephine, Domenic and Jacquie, through the golden thread of love. Your dearest wife, mother, sister, the one who gave so much to all. Our friend, Renee who always brightened the world and made all she encountered feel special, with her kindness, love and hope. Thankfully she still is near, I do feel her. She wrote me a prayer once, which I cherish.
With much love,
Wish I lived closer.
Constance
Hi Angelique, loads of love to you all. You are on my mind and heart so much.
I have dedicated my art dolls to dearest Renee. Which I feel she as sent me a gift to share.
In this I would like to make you two dolls, one of Renee with angel wings and one for your aunty who still fighting the cancer battle.
Don't worry if you are too upset that you cannot answer me, I totally respect and send you so much love.
When you feel ready, write to me.
Dearest Renee's family!
LOADS OF LOVE AND HUGS!
Julie
"Now, in death, is only loved."
Peace be with your family and your beloved Renee.
I only knew Renee through the love and words of others. That was enough to care about her and feel the sadness in so many hearts when she left us.
I send love and I will continue to keep Renee and her family in my prayers.
So beautifully said...my deepest sympathy to her husband, children, and family. Thank you for sharing her life with us then and now.
Blessings,
Coralie
She touched many lives!!! What a wonderful person! She will be missed!
we are all thinking of your family today, much love to you all
A beautiful tribute to Renee who I was only really just beginning to know before she died..
I am so sorry for all her close relatives & friends who will miss her....... and I will too.
She was a very kind lady and it came out in her posts just how much she loved her family.
Love and prayers. Maggie.
Such beautiful words, she was so brave and such an inspiration. Thank you for posting this. My heart goes out to you all. Im am so grateful to have met her and spoken with her through this blog.
I never held her hand
I never saw steam rise from her coffee
I couldnt help her when I wanted to so much
she always thought of others
this I noticed constantly
and she fought for her faith
and family
I never held her hand
but I truly loved the woman
Thank you for taking the time to post this. My sincere condolences to you all. With love and deepest blessings, Helz x
Thank you from the very heart of me for sharing this most beautiful of tributes to a most beautiful woman. Please take my love and prayers to help ease the pain in your hearts just a little. Your wife, mother, sister, grandmother and friend to hundreds will always be loved and remembered...Renee left a legacy for us all no matter where in the world we may be. xxxx
You are all so brave and this is just beautiful. I had a little trouble coming here towards the end...just didn't want to be sad but Renee was such a special person and she embodied all of us...sharing what we all fear, what we all love, as well as her pain and anger...I loved your tribute and her words especially were so evoking(can't find the right word)but they touched me deeply as all her words did...
Blessings to you all...I will miss her here.
Angelique, I still think and pray for all of you often.
I miss your mom!
When you all feel better(I know that may take a very long time) will you please tell us stories of your mother? I would love to hear about her from you all.
And maybe keep us posted on Josephine and Domenic and how they are doing? We have all grown to know your family and I am curious to hear about Renee's beloved grandchildren. I also would like to know how Jacquie is doing.
Be well, be safe, and be love and loved.
Bless all of your hurting hearts.
Thank you for posting a beautiful tribute.
I came to know Renee through her blog, and over time rejoiced in her writings, often reflecting on the courage she showed in the nature of her circumstances.
It's a loss not easy to comprehend or bear. Renee, you will be missed much, very much. It was a privilege to know you here.
I'm so sorry for the loss of this beautiful special woman.
My thoughts and prayers are with all of you.
xxx
A beautiful tribute for a beautiful lady.
My prayers are with you all, in this time of sorrow.
Godspeed, Renee...
The Heavens are Brighter with the Spirit of Renee. She was loaned to us for a short while here on earth, but she will grace the gardens of Heaven forever.
May you find comfort in knowing that she lived a full life and touched many hearts along her path. She shared her wonderful heart and life with her soul-mate and raised a beautiful family. Her Light will always shine through all those she has touched.
Blessings to you and your family always. May God Grant you His Love,Peace and Understanding. Love and Light, Nina P
Forever deeply touched by your dear mother. A WOMAN in the whole sense of the word. I am sorry I didn't send a message sooner, but unfortunately I have been away in Portugal since March 5th to care and focus all my energy and love on my dear brother Ricardo, who is in a coma due to an an automobile accident since March 2nd.
Your mother will be forever with all of us who read her words and felt her courage and love.
She will always be here in spirit and in all of you- her family.
xoxoxoxo
Isabel
With love and appreciation to Wahid, Angélique, Nadalene and Nathan. I never met you but Renee made you real here and I can only thank you, for sharing this with us. I pray that you are strong and your heart's pain is lessened in the coming time.
I posted this for her last week:
http://clarityinwonderland.blogspot.com/2010/03/farewell-sweetheart.html
I hope I can share it with you as I loved her and our friendship. Peace and love to you all, Amina xxx.
This is a lovely tribute to a remarkable woman. Renee touched many lives and will be remembered by all her loving online friends. My heartfelt condolences to you all, her loved ones.
Wishing you each strength and peace and light. ♥XO
What a beautiful obituary. I thank you for taking the time to post this for us. Renee was one in a million. I miss her too.
I am just back from China and have learned of sweet Renee's passing. I am one of the people that had the honor of her gracing my blog with her words. I will miss her horribly. To you her family, know that even to us strangers in cyberspace her passing is very painful for we have come draw inspiration, love and strength from her. We have learned grace and bravery unlike any other. We have come to know you through her words and care about you. You are her legacy and her biggest pride and joy.
Rest in peace beautiful lady. Thank you for sharing your life with us.
you are missed and loved everyday, renee.
many of renee's friends will be contributing to the development of a book called RENEE'S BOOK OF LOVE.
everyone who has been touched by her in any way is invited to participate.
for information please visit kj's blog at www.karenjasper.blogspot.com or look for the logo studio lolo developed on various blogs.
the completed book will hopefully be a comfort to renee's family as well as to the many many blogfriends who love her dearly.
thank you,
love
kj
I am so terribly touched by this post & eyes filled with tears. We lost my mother to lung cancer (never smoked) in Jan. & now my mother in law March 8th to stomach cancer. It's such a hard path for the sufferers and those that love them. My heart goes out to you all and this tribute you wrote would make her so proud. I'm taking away the lovely words at the end to pass to those who also are effected by loss. Peace and love be with you all. xx
Dear Angelique - I am stopping by to tell you that I am thinking of you and your family every day. I hope you are taking care of yourself, you have all been through so much. I miss hearing about you all. Renee loved to talk about each and every one of you. :) I miss her very much. Love to you and your family. I am sending Jacquie an extra hug. xox Pam
What a beautiful tribute, Renee would be so proud of you all. She is missed by so many , but we are all better people for what she brought to our lives.
I cried when I read this , sad for a dear friend who will be remembered always. Take strength in the fact that she loved you all so much and that Im sure she will always watch over you from above .
I did not know Renee for as long as others , but will always be grateful for the support and kindness that she showed me. Look after each other and I hope your beautiful memories help you through this difficult time xxxx
I only knew Renee through her lovely blog
but her spirit lives on
through her family
as the button says
FUCK CANCER
but please accept my sincere condolences.
much love
a pinch in my heart when I saw this, but when I read through, it's beautiful, a beautiful tribute to a beautiful woman. Thanks for sharing.
God bless you all.
warm hugs to everyone,
MJ @ sassyscribbles
Good morning, dear Angelique. Just stopping by to say I am thinking of you and your family. Beautiful, beautiful new header. It represents so much. Made me catch my breath.
xoxo
bella
I miss Renee. Her strength was such an inspiration. Even in her struggle she always had time to stop by my blog with encouragement and sunlight. Not until the last few weeks did I realize how much effort she was making for so many people.
Love to you all.
May she rest in peace.
I am sorry for your loss.
Just thinking of you all today - Spring is here....and I KNOW Renee is there, close to you and wanting you to relish the beginning of the season of re-birth, new flowers, new animals, new life.... she has NOT left you, nor her blogging family.... and she never will.
Sending you all love and strength,
♥ Robin ♥
My heart goes out to you and yours during this time. I did know your wife that well, I met her through blogging, but her beautiful spirit shined through in her blog posts and the comments and support she offered others even while she was struggling herself, may you be at peace.
I did not know of Renee until after her death but feel as if I do after spending a lot of time reading her wisdom and courage here today. My mother was diagnosed with IBC in September of 2008 and is "doing great right now" which is all I can ask for. She's a real trooper too and I deeply feel your loss and the toll going through this with her has taken on you, her family. I'm sure that you, like I, have been deeply impressed with a strength you may not have appreciated before in her. This strength is in you too, thanks to her and I pray that it will carry you through this impossible time.
My sincerest condolences to your family. I miss Renee. She will be remembered.
It's me. Just stopping by because it's too hard to stay away. I miss you Renee, so much. Your new banner is perfect for the thought. I wonder how you are doing and then I smile, because I know you are with God and family. I'm just here, that's all. I planted a rose bush for you and I can hardly wait till it flowers. Love, gloria
Angelique, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. God bless your all.
Good habits are hard to break and visiting Renee was a habit of mine.
Hello Angelique, I love the new header!!!
Just thinking of you and your family.
Renee was such a beautiful person, inside and out. Thank you so much for sharing this. I will always remember her.
Gosh I miss you Renee! I just sent an email to kj for Renee's Book of Love and I cried as I wrote it.
It is sunny here today in Ontario with a promise of Spring in the air. Did you have a hand in this? I like to think you did (and I won't blame you for the huge, wet snowflakes we had last night! LOL)
I'm assuming it was your beautiful daughter Angelique that changed your banner here. It is poignantly beautiful. Definitely something you would have picked.
Love you...
Sue
hi angelique,
just stopping by to say i'm thinking about u and your family always. missing renee so much. i hope and pray u are all healing.
love u,
linda
So very sorry for your loss. Your family will be in my prayers.
This might sound strange, but I have to write this.
I didn't know Renee, nor did I read her blog. I just came across this blog earlier this month. I was shocked at how much Renee looks like my own mother, and was immediately drawn in and bookmarked the blog.
It's so interesting how things happen, how coincidences happen.
On March 7, my own beloved mother died suddenly. It was a shock to us all, completely unexpected and without warning. I don't live near my mom, so I1 was quickly on a plane to do what needed to be done. I just got back in town and visited the blog and was so sad to hear Renee had passed. Her obituary sounds very similar to the obituary my sister and I wrote about our Mom. My Mom's birthday was just a few days ago. She would have been 56. And she, like your Renee sounds like, was a beautiful person through and through.
My heart goes out to your family. Sadly, I know what you're going through.
When I heard the bell tower in my head that Thursday after Renee had went home I smiled thinking of her and going through chemo myself everytime I hear and find myself in the bell tower, I will think of sweet Renee! She sent me an angel I will treasure forever. She is FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS! No more bats darling sweet woman! GOD BLESS YOU ALL!
Very very sorry for your lose. Some people should live forever and to 100. Renee was one of those people.
Beautiful. Had only just met her through our blogs - I wish I'd found her sooner. Thank you for sharing, love to all of you.
Renee touched so many through her stories and sharing in "blog world" - Thank you for sharing her final days with us. Love, peace and all God's blessing to your family.
Dearest Renee,
I feel you in the room,
May your wings grow wider with each passing moment.... May softness surround the ones whom you love...
May you dwell gently in their hearts and kindle their dreams...
May love connect you by its wild invisible threads.... Forever...
I love you and miss you,
Maithri
I am horribly late here (not sure how I missed this!) but wanted to say thank you for sharing a beautiful obituary of one amazing woman!
I love and miss her so much!
i'm so sorry... may you forever find peace and comfort in your loss :(
so sorry to hear of this, may she find peace and comfort forever...
[been a long time since my last visit, had forgotten i was following a fellow canadian's blog :(]
My Prayers are with you and your family.
Dear Angelique,
Just checking in with you and family to say I am thinking of you all and sending love and prayers.
I hope the Canadian Winter is beginning to dissapate some and Spring is returning to help warm you all.
Renee is mentioned frequently in various blogs all round the world... her spirit is soaring and she is smiling.
Love and strength to all - and special prayers to Jacquie.
♥ Robin ♥
Thinking of you, as always, but especially today.
xoxo
To all of Renee's beautiful family, I just wanted to let you know I am thinking about you all and especially today, on this Renee's birthday. She was a beautiful friend and I know all of your hearts must be aching.
Love to you all, she is often in my thoughts.
xxx
She amazed me with how kind and giving she was to me, whom she never met. So many people have received her gifts. I am sad, and feel lucky to have been shown her beauty. I met her through Ces.
My thoughts go out to all of you.
Happy Birthday anniversary to your dearest sweetest Mother dear Angelique.
Happy Birthday , Renee.
God Bless all of you while you remember and celebrate and be together and love.
happy birthday my darling moon sister. damn i'm glad no bats but i sure as hell miss you today!
(two swears but not the F one. i put that one on your cake instead)
♥
Happy first Birthday Home, Renee. You've met my Doris, haven't you...I shall never forget.
**blows kisses to eternity** Deb
I have just now become aware of Renee's death after after reading her sister's birthday blog. I am so very sad to hear this news and the tears cannot stop falling. Renee felt like part of all of our families - as did all of you - because of her wonderful blog. What an incredible woman and family you are and I consider myself truly blessed to have shared in it for a little while. I cannot even begin to imagine the deep pain you all must feel at this time. My love and empathy, prayers and hopes go out to all of you. What a brave and beautiful woman you had for the matriarch of your family. It is tragic that she had to leave this earth at such a young age and that she had to suffer so greatly. I wish you much love and strenth in the time ahead. Thank you for sharing the wonderful woman with us.
This is such a beautiful tribute to your lovely Mum. I am so lucky to have known her, even for a short while and I feel so much sympathy for you all in your loss.
Sarahxx
I can't believe you are gone, Renee. Dammit, I don't know if I really believed that you would survive, or if I didn't want to face the truth. Because, as I shared with you, I have such a difficult time trusting people. So, how could I admit to myself that I loved someone I never met?
How could I allow myself to get too close.
To think that after all these years I haven't learned the lesson of love. The lesson that death can come at any moment. I lost my mother when I was barely out of high school. In an instant she was gone from my life.
I can't allow myself to spend time regretting. But, I wish I would have kept in touch these past few months. I am so sorry, Renee!!
Thank you for your love. Thank you for the laughs. And, most of all, thank you for being in my life.
I love you.
Nancy
I visited here often and was touched by Renee's words. She is not gone, for she lives on in each one that loves her. Celebrate all the things she loved. My arms embrace you in your loss and I wish you God's love and comfort at this time.
Katharina
I was unable to drop comment here weeks before due to my internet problem but my heart is always with her....
Here is my dedication to Renee:)
http://yoonsee.blogspot.com/2010/03/special-tribute-to-renee-khan.html
"And you will see me in each other’s faces and hear me in each other’s words."
What beautiful sentences.
Renee touched so many people and still does.
I will miss her even though I never met her.....
Love to you all
I will miss my new friend and I only wish for you, her family, nothing more grander than love and peace....
May you find the celebration of Renee's amazing life to cast smiles upon you rather than, losing ones self in the abyss of loss.
My love from across the way....
N-Peace
I would on occasion come by and read Renee's blog and just wanted to pass on my heart felt condolence to her family.
she will be so dearly missed. what a wonderful and talented soul. please know that so many people have your family in our thoughts and prayers.
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