Thursday, 30 October 2008

Falling Memories


















While holding on to them, my memories drop like leaves. Memories are made of moments and these moments help make up my life. Life is wonderful and needs to be embraced. Dare to care.

Flashbacks From The Month Of October

October 30, 2001

*Wahid’s Mom died one year ago today. Strange story – Nathan has a frame with four pictures in it from Trinidad, the picture with Wahid’s Mom in it was the only picture halfway out of the frame when I went downstairs this morning.

*The main themes of my life journey right now are: my children; my husband; my family’s health; my family’s education; making a comfortable home; being a good wife and mother. I am happy at this stage of my life and the direction myself and my family is headed.

*I was lost when I was 9 years old, my family had just moved to Windsor Park and I was starting Grade 5 at Frontenac School. I remember walking home at lunch hour and I wasn’t sure where my street was. I walked down De Bourmont, passing Elizabeth Road where I lived and kept walking till I got to Dugas which was the last street off De Bourmont. I went to a house where an older lady lived and she either helped me find my house or she had a neighbour boy of hers walk me. I think it was the neighbour boy. One thing I learned from that was it is okay to ask for help when you need it.

October 20, 2003

*I definitely feel the strongest connections to people opposed to institutions or animals. I don’t have a bond to my job or church. I don’t necessarily have a bond to my ideas but I do have a bond to my ideals.

*People delight me. The types of people who delight me are upbeat, enthusiastic, young, and carefree, in general – just a pleasure to be around. Angelique, Nadalene, and Nathan delight me. Natalie and Allison delight me.

*I admire my ability to bring people together. The qualities that stand out in this regard that I believe I have are: openness; a willingness for the people I like to like each other; the ability to leave the people with a comment that connects them together; listening skills; and friendliness.

October 1, 2004

*What I dislike most in other people is laziness, liars, false attitudes, pessimisim, life-stealers, people who won’t try.

*What I like most in other people is character, integrity, faithfulness, enjoyment of simple pleasures, a letting go, authentic, steadfastness, focus, a life giver.

October 25, 2004

*God is great. Life is good. The sun is shining through the window and landing on this very spot.

*My belief in what Jesus stood for is unshakable. My love for my children is unshakable. My fundamental principles are: love one another; treat others well; judge not; be kind; care; be compassionate; put one foot in front of another; have faith, hope and joy; and make life a well-loved entity.

October 27, 2004

*Remember that life is a gift and at 48 years of age I have to live the moments not just exist in the moments. Enjoy the pleasure. Make the feelings more intense, not just ho-hum neutral. Participate, don’t just observe.

*Heartfelt joy.

Flash Forward

My friend Julie died the other day on October 27, 2008. Julie delighted me and I want all of you to know that it is best to surround yourself with people that truly do delight you because life is very short.

To my list of Angelique, Nadalene, Nathan, Natalie, and Allison I would like to add Taylor, Elizabeth, Flossie-p and her friend Emma. I want you all to know that I am delighted by your enthusiasm and your humour.

Please do me the biggest favour and don’t be too cool for school. Keep your sense of gratitude, enthusiasm, and people loving spirits. Show your appreciation for people and what they do for you, don’t come off like you are owed or entitled because you are not.

This attitude of I don’t care, whatever, doesn’t matter to me, is so boring and so uncool, and such a yawn.

Even though I am not much of one anymore, I yell “Life-lifters everywhere unite.”

4 comments:

Liz said...

You're not "much" of a life lifter???
That'll be the day.
Are you kidding? You are Dr. Life Lifter. Always have been, always will be.You also happen to be Dr. Honest, Dr. Connection, and not to mention Dr. Always Gives A Shit.
If that isn't life lifting, I'd like to know what is. Thanks for keepin'it real Mrs. Khan. Half an hour with you is both life lifting and life altering. xo

natalie said...

elizabeth always says it best. you have always been a life lifter. you're so insightful and if i'm ever feeling down you always life me up.

Taylor said...

to my favorite "life lifter" as you have always been; and will always be (even when you don't believe it yourself.) i thank you; to be placed in the same light as some of my favorites I am honoured; as i aspire to have the spirit and nature they do! This made my day when I read it and has kept me thinking about it daily, thanks for the "uplifting gift" you didn't even know you gave me.
lots of love.


To my list of Angelique, Nadalene, Nathan, Natalie, and Allison I would like to add Taylor, Elizabeth, Flossie-p and her friend Emma. I want you all to know that I am delighted by your enthusiasm and your humour.

Please do me the biggest favour and don’t be too cool for school. Keep your sense of gratitude, enthusiasm, and people loving spirits. Show your appreciation for people and what they do for you, don’t come off like you are owed or entitled because you are not.

Deborah said...

Oh how you bring people together, Renee. I find myself wondering how I ever lived without you...