I am not sure if my Mom will kill me for trespassing in her Blogger account and writing to you (or for putting up this picture) but I think she will be ok with it. Lately, my Mom has been having a rough time. I know she has mentioned the bats flying around in her stomach, but now I would say that they laid their nests and they don’t seem to be leaving anytime soon. As a result, my Mom hasn’t been able to really eat or drink anything since the middle of October. Can you imagine?
She had a biopsy (the beginning of December) to find out what was going on and she did not receive her final results till Feb. 4….that being that the cancer cells in her stomach cannot be identified. The results are inconclusive because the cells resemble stem cells rather than tissue cells. The doctors have told her that they would treat it as a breast cancer (even though it is extremely rare for breast cancer to spread to the stomach) as they believe they are 90% sure that is what it is. At her appointment, they told her that she would start combination chemotherapy today. She heard these results on the day my Grandma died. I had no way of telling her that her mother had died as she spent the day at the doctor’s. Unfortunately, she was there so long and in so much pain; she was unable to visit her Mom one last time.
My Mom continued to suffer in her pain as she had for the last couple of months (believing that this is what it is like when you have cancer in your stomach) but it was becoming unbearable. She went to the hospital on Sunday and she is there still. She has still to find a balance between no pain and no nausea. She is still unable to really eat (I don’t think she could finish a whole yogurt cup in a day) or drink and we are thankful and that she is being taken care of and finally getting fluids in the hospital. The goal is to get her comfortable before they can think of any sort of treatment at this point. Hopefully, this will happen soon.
As for my Mom, I think her spirits are ok. I know that she is quite tired and frustrated. She throws up so many times a day and she is in quite a bit of pain in her legs and back. I imagine she was also quite upset that she hasn’t really been able to grieve for her Mom since she has been in so much pain and she was unable to attend the funeral. How shitty.
I feel like I am rambling but I need to get some of this out. I would normally tell my Mom what is bothering me but I am obviously not able to right now. I also feel that you should know what has been happening as I know her blogger friends are very dear to her. We often hear names and stories of her friends and I know that she takes so much comfort and pride in her relations. I thank you all for your support, prayers and well wishes. They have always meant so much to my Mom and to us, her family. Hopefully, my Mom will recover and be home real soon. I can’t imagine anything but.
Angelique
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1 – 200 of 209 Newer› Newest»Angelique,
Thank you so much for posting. I have been wondering, and worrying. I also thank you for posting pictures. I feel close to Renee, but I have never seen a picture of her, so it is so nice to see her beautiful self. Thank you so much. I hope she feels better soon.
Julie
Angelique, how kind of you to tell us this yourself. I was wondering, as it's been so quiet here.
How can we help? Shall we send care packages? How can we support you and your dad? Please do post what you can, specifically, as I love your mom so much and would love to be of help. I will be praying for her and your family. Please give her a gentle kiss from me. XOXOXOXOXOXO
thank you so much for posting this, angelique. i have been so worried about renee from this long silence. i am sorry about your grandmother, and i send your whole family hugs, and my best, most magical thoughts.
oh angelique, thank you so much. i was going to call tomorrow, my worry became too strong not to. so thank you so much for not only this update, but for your one-of-a-kind Mother's beautiful face.
i can't imagine how many comments you are going to get, so many friends blessing, loving our beloved Renee.
i so hope she is comfortable. i am so sad she did not make it to the funeral, how hard that must have been for all of you.
and angelique, i am right with you in believing only that Renee will be home soon. i miss her so much. please kiss her for me, tell her kj her moon sister is pining for her. :)
thank you again, angelique. your family is incredible. who could ever say why any of you have to go through all that you have, but i do know that you and nadeline and nathan and your dad and jacquie, just like your Mom, could not be more special, more worthy.
love always,
kj
oh angelique, that was so very sweet of u. we all appreciate you for keeping us informed. i think of your mom and your family constantly. u will all be in my prayers.
love,
linda cardina
Angelique, thank you.Very sweet of you to think of us.
She knows, but give her our love anyway.
Prayers still going up from here,,,for your Mom, you, and the rest of the family.
Hoping to see her sweet self here again very soon. Tell her we miss her.
Angelique: Thank you so much for sharing this news about your dear mother. I'm so sorry for this unrelenting suffering your family is going through - and especially for Renee. I am glad, however, that she is where she can be nourished intravenously, and hopefully her pain and suffering can be minimized.
Please give her a big hug for me and let her know that my thoughts are with her.
My thoughts go out to you and your family. Take care of yourselves too.
I'm honestly lost for words but I know in my heart that it is all about love and support for dearest Renee, I pray that she recovers fast and her pains be gone.
Thanks Angelique for sharing this with the photos, I'm sure she wont mind for they are all reflections of her great and cheery spirit despite all these.
with much love,
mj@sassyscribbles
Angelique,
Thank you so much for this update. It saddens me to hear that your mom has been feeling so awful for so long. I think of her everyday and my thoughts and prayers are with all of your family.
I hope that the doctors can do something to get rid of the pain and find her some comfort.
Your Mom has a very kind spirit, I'm sure she won't hurt you.
I am also so sorry for the loss of your Grandma during this difficult time.
Every bit of healing energy that I can find, raise, beg, borrow or steal, I am sending to Winnipeg for Renee. Hugs and kisses during this terrible time!
Oh Angelique sweetie...
This was just precious of you. I thank you so much for letting me know about sweet Renee. I am so, so sorry to hear about her sweet Moma. You take care of your Moma now, she needs you.
I have a prayer journal that I keep at my bedside with all of my prayer needs inside. I will be adding Renee and praying for some relief in all of this. She needs some nourishment, ofcourse it is helpful to have the IV's, but still. Please let her know I will be lifting her up in prayer.
Be strong sweetie. This is such a rough path to travel. We were there just this past October 23rd with my 33 year old neice, also passed to cancer. I know what your pain is like.
God Bless you Sweetie...Much love and hugs to you both, Sherry
Thank you, Angelique. I know that that was a difficult decision to make. So many of us out here in blogland adore your Mom. I pray that they can get her comfortable and that we will be hearing from her soon. Love you Renee!
Catherine
Thanks for sharing such sweet photo's of your Mum and giving us an update. I continue to keep you all in my prayers. Love Lisa
Angelique,
So glad you found some time to post an update on your mom, thank you. I so enjoy her writting. I'm so glad I stumbled onto her blog a while back. She has helped me find insight into my heart as a mother, wife, sister, daughter and friend. Her heartfelt words, not only of the harsh truth about her battle with this terrible disease but more importantly about her love for life and all the people she holds so dear, have touched me so deeply and inspired me equally so.
I will continue to pray for her comfort and healing and for your entire family.
Heather
Angelique, thank you so much for letting us know. It must have been so hard for your Mom not to be at her moms funeral. You have all been such a strong family and continue to be. Pleas pass on my prayers for your Mom and your family.
Angelique how very caring of you to keep up updated on your lovely mom. Please give her my love and prayers. She is such a special lady and has touched all our hearts in a very special way. xxoo
Thanks for keeping us updated, Angelique. I'll be thinking of your mom today.
my thougths are with you and your mom...
Thank you dear Angelique for filling us in...yes she is so dear to us...
My darling Renee I hope that you can get some respite from the pain and discomfort dear heart.
We'll wait for you with open arms.
Oh Angelique, you know how close your mother and I are. Please send me the phone number at my private email - she has it on her address book and I will call her and talk to her. I miss her so much, and I am so grateful you have updated the blog. I know everyone who comes here wants to know how she is and everyone is rooting for her and Jacquie as well.
Please give her a big hug and tell her that I love her and that everything is going to be alright.
And you, you give yourself the hug I wish I could give you for all the wonderful things you are doing and what you are having to bear these days. Love from here.
Angelique, thank you so much for keeping us in the loop. I think we all knew things were not good for Renee as she's been posting less and less and not responding to emails. You my darling are a good daughter to let us know, I hope mine will do the same should I not be able to keep in touch. Thank you and please keep us updated on mum's progress and let me know if she needs anything my email is bainbridge1610atgmail etc. And if you feel like rambling sweetheart, please feel free to do so.
Please, give her my love and tell her I'm still rubbing that silly reindeer's tummy! Thinking of you all up there from way down here in Australia. You are a special and wonderful family going through hard times. . . very hard times. Look after your Dad too! There is no reason for her to be in pain. Be diligent and forceful but polite with the medical fraternity. Her comfort is our concern. Bless you!
Angelique thank you for letting us all know what is happening to Renee at the moment.
Wishing her all the luck in the world.
Micki x
Angelique feel free to pour out what troubles you. Those of us who care so much for your mother understand and are grateful for the privilege of accompanying her on this difficult journey. Thank you so much for keeping us informed.
My love to your mother, you and the whole family.
God bless you all
Arija
Hi Angelique,
I am sure she won't!
Thank you for sharing news of your Mom here. I can't imagine how hard everything must be for all of you but you.
I send lots of love to Renee.
Take care,
Sarah xx
Angelique, I wish I could give you a hug. I can only imagine how you feel about your mother because we are all crazy about her. Do you know how many times since october that she has left me the most beautiful messages on my blog? and to know that she has done this in great distress makes it so much more special.She has been in my thoughts . Please tell her I send her love.I can only imagine how hard this must all be. Stay Together Strong.
Thank you for letting us know.
sending you hugs and strength,
Jackie
Angelique & Renee, how beautiful you both are. Your Mum is amazing Angelique and has shown such love and compassion to me, in the midst of her own pain and grief. I can't possibly express how much that has meant to me and how blessed I feel to have found her via blogging and (unfortunately) cancer. I am so sad that she is in such terrible pain. I send you all my love and all my wishes to your Mum and your family. I hope that things improve and that the pain is treated quickly.
The love of family is everything. Continue to hold them close. You will be in my thoughts.
Love Cinta
xxx
i am sitting here in london crying. i have only had silly gastric flu for 3 days and that was bad enough. please give her 100 smoochy kisses from joss, and tell her how much i love her, and i do. thanks so much for letting me know.
Thank you, Angelique, for hijacking the blog. I have been worried by the silence and it helps to hear an update even though it is a sad one. I continue to hold your mother and all of you in my heart. Please given your mother a hug for me. ♥
Life can be so horrible. I do hope she improves so your mum can at least grieve, for her own mum.
Its so sad, you will all be in my prayers.
Hugs and send our love
A;isha
What an incredible daughter you are , my heart goes out to you for knowing your mom is in so much pain, and for the loss of your Grandmother.
Thank you for sharing these tender and beautiful words.
Love and prayers to that gorgeous radiant life loving angel of a mom of yours.
Angelique,
Thank you for letting us know how your mom is doing. Please tell her that we are all praying for her. I think of all of you on a daily basis. I'm sending her tons of healing thoughts.
xoxo
manon
Oh, thank you so much for letting us know. Plese let her know that we are thinking of her deeply and love her very much. I don't think she is going to be mad at you I think she thinks what we all think, you are wonderful! ((hugs))
Thank you Angelique for letting us know. My heart aches for you all, and I hope she knows she is in my prayers.
I know this isn't easy for you. It appears you have your mother's strength which is admirable!
Love, Darla
Angelique, thank you so much for letting us know how your Mom is doing. I know this is such a hard time for you, too. Please tell your Mom that I love her, and I have missed her bunches. I pray they will get those damn bats under control soon so she can come home. I love the pictures of your Mom - she is a beauty! :)) Sending you hugs, and strength. xoxoxoxox Pam
your mom and your whole family are in my thoughts and prayers...
thank you so very much for taking the time to think of 'us' out here in blogland...
love and hugs surround you all.
thank you for letting us know...i will hold you all in my prayers
Thanks for the update, Angelique. I am so sorry for all that your family has suffered, and so frustrated that I don't have a magic wand that I could wave to make it all go away and just have been a bad dream
Your mom, and now all of you, are in my thoughts and prayers.
Dearest Angelique,
I feel I know you through my emails with your mom, and I am deeply grateful that you have shred this with all of us, who love your mom so deeply. Let her know I am thinking of her through out each day, missing her, and sending my thoughts and prayers that soon she will have comfort and treatment underway to bring her home. Blessings and love to you and your family, Karin
Angelique! Thank you so much for telling us what has been happening with your mother. She is such a wonderful trooper and a fighter. And she is dearer to us than you would believe possible. We love her to pieces.
We know that only the conditions you describe would keep her away from her computer and are hoping along with all of you that the pain will be managed soon.
We love hearing from you too. I hope you will hijack your mom's account often!
Loving thoughts are with all of you, always.
xoxo right back at you
Linda
Dear Angelique,
Thank you, thank you!! I was just talking to another blogger friend who was thinking of calling to get a status and just to ask how renee was doing.
How very sad that she couldn't attend the funeral.
I'm thrilled that she's at least in the hospital getting fluids at the very least, but also getting (hopefully) whatever medical support she needs.
The blog world is definately emptier without your mom's huge presence. Please send her my love and tell her to do what she needs to do.
xoxoxo
Laurel
Oh Angelique..thank you so very much for letting us know what was going on with your Mama. I have been worried and wondered how she was. You are a complete love to post this for her..I'm sure she would not mind at all. Hugs to you for sharing your feelings and all you are going through hon.
Renee..oh my dear friend...am sending Reiki and love to you. Big gentle swan hugs hon. You know I love you and you are ever in my thoughts and prayers. May they find some balance with your meds quickly! Love you darlin', Sarah
my prayers are with you, your family and most especially your mother
blessings
~*~
I'm having flash backs to my kidney stone... the pain, nausea, inability to eat. I can't imagine it as chronic. Poor Mom. And she looks so vibrant on the playground horse. What a great picture. Wishing it were different won't make it so, but...I wish it were different. Wish she were able to eat casseroles of love at Grandma's wake.
We all love Renee so much, all of you. Even with all of her pain, she would come to our blogs and leave comments, seemed she was determined to do so. Thank you so much for this post. She is always on my mind and in my prayers. Love, Lynda
Hi Angelique,
Thank You for keeping us updated, I was concerned that your mom had not wrote in a few days.
All my prayers are with all of you.
God Bless!
Love and Hugs!!
Tammy
Angelique, my thoughts and prayers are with your mom and you and your family. I have been a friend of your mom's for a long time now and thank you for letting us know how your mom is. ::hugs:: gloria
Oh, sweet Aneglique, how kind of you to keep us up to date on your precious Mother, our friend. I don't think she'd be mad at you at all for sharing with us. I had to laugh at the first picture because I have a similar one when I was in my 20's.
You must know that our prayers and thoughts are with our precious Renee and you and your entire family. Take care and give her our love. Blessings!!
Angelique - I forgot to say, you can talk to me any time, and I know the other 477 people on your Mom's blog feel the same way. I am praying your Mom feels better today, she has been through so much. Love to you all - Pam
Angelique my dear, bless you for letting us all know how your sweet sweet mother is doing.
We are all holding hands out here in blog land praying, wishing, and loving to and for your mother all the time.
I can only speak for myself but I think about her everday, sometimes every hour of the day,sometimes more, and I send white light and healing thoughts when ever I do.
I am so sorry for the hurting hearts and trials that your whole family has been through.
Love and huge hugs,
Marie
And thank you for posting the pictures, I love that smile and the light from her eyes, she is so beautiful.
darling Angelique...how are a wonderful daughter...just like your mom was a wonderful daughter to HER mom...thank you for posting...i have been worrying...love and gentle hugs to all of you...
Holly Hamlett in Los Angeles
Thank you sweetheart for letting us know. I have been so worried and sent many emails. Your mom is an angel and we all love her very much, please tell her that Annie loves her and is praying, also I am sending love to you and the whole family.xoxo
I love the photos!
You're a good daughter....I will be sending your Mom my best, healing prayers.
Darling Angelique, thank you very, very much for telling us how your dear mother is doing. I worry about her so much. We all do. She has become very special to so many.
Your dear mother is always in my heart and prayers. I'm glad she's letting people take care of her, and I pray she finds relief from the pain. Please give her a kiss for me, a gentle one, on her forehead.
And please don't forget to take good care of yourself and your two beautiful children.
You are all my my prayers.
Hugs and love,
xoxoxo
Angela
angelique this is so frustrating to read. I can't bear to think of your mother suffering like this.
I don't know if this will help but please look into alternatives, the western way of dealing with cancer is toxic! they are leeches making money off of the suffering of others. I heard about this group on a radio program on health on www.Hayhouseradio.com and made note of it:
http://www.peopleagainstcancer.net/about.asp
I don't know anything other than a doctor was mentioned who had been able to cure cancers but not in the conventional way. I am not affiliated with them, but I encourage you to do a bit of research. They may be able to recommend something to give your mom relief. Cancer should not be rampant in this day and age! Please look at more natural ways of helping your mother, she deserves a beautiful life.
you can delete this post if you like, I wanted to get the message to you
I don't think your mom could ever be to upset with you for to much of anything. You are so sweet to keep us updated on what has been going on with her. I thank you for that. I truly wish her home and feeling better very soon. Let her to know that we love and miss her! You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers....
(((HUGS)))
Angelique, Thank you so much for word of Renee and the adorable photos, she is so shy about her photos and she is such a beauty inside, outside and all around. I hope that she is getting some sort of nourishment- intervenous feeding is a drag but it keeps one alive for yet another round ...what a strong , lovely woman, she is so loved all over the world and beyond.
She knows, and I am sure that she can feel the universal love hug around her. Thanks for this post, darling.
Dear Angelique i did not know this but did hear from one of the ladies from our group yesterday. Oh I am so sorry everything your Mom is going through and now has been in hospital this week.
Please give her hugs and love from me. I hope she can come home soon. She never leaves my thoughts and is always in my prayers.
Love Sally
hope your Mommy get well soon..
send my regard to her :D
Angelique!
Your mom is probably going to kill you but all of us are going to be thanking you for the update!
Even though it's not good news, it's good to know how Renee is doing nonetheless.
Sometimes things get thrown at you all at once. Wouldn't life be wonderful if all the bad bits were evenly spaced out?
Renee is a trooper and she will get through this. I know it!
All the best to you and your family during this difficult time!
-Dean
thank you so much for sharing this Angelique.
Dear Angelique.... your name suits you. We are all very thankful to have word of our much-beloved Renee....although this is obviously not the news we wanted to hear. It is good, though, that she is in hospital getting fluids... please tell her we all love her and pray for her. She is one of the bravest women I have "met" and knowing her has enriched my life. You had a remarkable Grandmother, you have an amazing Mother and you - are their Angel. We pray for all of you.
Thank you for the update. I know Renee will understand and not be angry!
Robin
Thank you Angelique for keeping all of us in the know.
We continue to keep all of you in our prayers.
Love Yvette
thank you for letting us know. thinking of you all...
Angelique, you are a dear. thank you for writing this post and letting us know how she is doing. please pass along some love, know that you are all in my prayers.
Thank you so much, Angelique, for updating us. I have been ever so worried about her and lifting her in prayer. She is so loved by this community, the bloggy world, and she has given us all so much, that could never be put into word.
Lord Jesus, who hath said
Ask and you shall receive,
Seek and you shall find,
Knock and it shall be opened to you.
Through the divine intervention of Thy Most Holy Mother, Mary,
I knock,
I seek,
I ask
That my prayer be granted.
Please relieve your faithful servant, Renee, of her pain and let her eat and drink of your everlasting life. Amen.
Dear Angelique,
Your mom has shared so much of her family, I am glad to see your goodness in print/person.
Please let her know she is loved, thought of and prayed for. I am also going to send a short email to her (if you can get into her email, please read it to her)
With love and prayers, Clarity, xxx.
P.S. Thank you.
Angelique,
I love you and love your Mom! Thank you so much for this post and for letting us know about your Mom. Please give her a hug from me.
I love the pictures...it's nice to be able to put a name with a lovely face.
Keeping you all close.
XO,
Kelly
Oh Shit. I'm so sorry you and your mom are having such a hard time. I pray for your family so many times throughout the day. I really do pray things will get better for you all. Hang in there, we are all here for you :)
I love the first photo, btw, it is so her :)
Hugs and prayers,
Meghann
Angelique, I want you to know that you, your mom and your whole family are in our prayers. Thank you for posting.
Angelique,
Your mom has named you appropriately. You are an angel, Angelique. Thank you for letting us know what is going on. I was worried when I didn't see a post for a bit. We've all come to love you all through Renee.
I'm sending you my light and love.
Hugs to you, and your mom.
xxoo
karen
I wish the absolute best for you during this tough time.
Kindest regards,
Tom Bailey
Thank you Angelique for invading your mom's Blog. While this was not the news I wanted to hear, it does not surprise me. Every day I check this Blog. I have been concerned for some time as the regular Blogging was not taking place.
I miss Renee deeply. Our Tuesday group has missed her presence greatly.
Your family has been through so much this past year. So much illness resulting in a loved one passing on. My prayers continue to go out to your whole family.
Love, Noreen
Oh, dear Angelique, thank you so much for writing this update about your sweet mom! I've been wondering how you are all doing and you are constantly in my thoughts and in my heart! Sending all my love, Silke
Hello Angelique
You sure are an angel. Thank you so much for giving us an update on your mother. I was very worried and still am.
Please tell Renee I am sending ALL my love and light to her everyday.
Big hugs
Peggy xxxxx
Angelique,
Thank you so much for sharing this with us. That was kind of you to share her trials with her blog friends. She is so strong and has such an amazing spirit. I wish your family all the best. God Bless.
xo,
Christina
Oh Angelique, come here so much, do anything you need to do. There is so much love for you all!
It pains me deeply to know Renee is in so much pain. Hope dearly she comes home soon. Been thinking about you so much and the younger generation left behind and glad you have a large family.
So please do come here, we will still be here for you!
Doesn't your mom look so beautiful! She is stunning!
Lovely to see her happy on the park ride. Beautiful photo.
There is so much love for all of you! Your in out hearts now!
I am blowing a kiss for Renee!
Love you all!
Julie
((((Angelique))))))
A very hard message for you to write I think, but one that all of us who are friends of your mom are appreciative of - although it is hard to read of all the pain Renee is going through. Thank you for the update.
Renee is so loved by all of us, and I know that each and every one of us that hold her dear are sending healing thoughts and prayers to her at this moment.
....may the bats shrivel and die - NOW......
♥
Sue
Dear Angelique, (((Hugz))) Please hold her dear hand and tell her that's from me and that i send her ~Love~ ...Always i send her ~Love~ <3
from Vicki x (NollyPosh)
Angelique - I'm SO glad you posted, I (along with everyone else) have been worried about your mom and with everything else going on - wondered how she was doing both physically and mentally. Please give her our love and thoughts and best wishes and everything else. She is just a wonderful lady and has a terrific, wonderful family. And SO glad you posted those lovely pictures, they are joyful and wonderful.
Please post however we can help, thank you
mim
Healing prayers are being sent to you Angelique and your Mommy. I am so sorry to hear of your Mom's pain and I pray that she will be healed and comforted.
Blessings,
Leslie
Thank you for posting, Angelique. My thoughts are with you, your mother and your entire family during this seemingly relentless and extremely difficult time.
Dear Angelique~
Thank you so much for letting us know as I have been worried about Renee. Please give her my love.
I am saddened to learn of the passing of your Grandmother also. My thoughts and prayers are with your family.
Love,
LuLu Kellogg
to renee's beloved family;
anything we can do, please know we will. we love renee. she is our sister (too) and we love her.
now we know that you will let us know what's happening if renee cannot. that is important and i thank you so much for it.
i am expecting renee back soon. i am glad she is getting treatment. actually, i'm glad to hear that.
love to each of you,
kj
Thinking of you Angelique. Don't know if your Mum mentioned it but we both have Lupus. I am holding you all in my thoughts and love. Such difficult times these are for you all. I hope Renee receives some romantic flowers from her beloved today, Valentine's Day :) but I am sending armfuls of lotus flowers filled with peace of mind and enlightenment.
Thank you so much for posting-I'm sending white light and healing vibes and a heartfelt prayer for peace and a pain free night.
You are your mothers daughter, to think of everyone else at this time. After reading your mothers blog I have been thinking about things a bit differently.
I wish her and you all that matter to her well.
Dearest Angelique,
Thank you so much for the update and the wonderful photographs. I cannot even begin to imagine the level of frustration and sheer hell these past months have been for your dear mother and all of you. It's the most helpless situation, and the fact that she has been able to endure it for so long says a lot about her strength and the support of her family. I've been praying with all my might. Though it's upsetting that there are no definite answers, I'm relieved that she is receiving treatment. Please tell your dear mother that when I walk with my fists closed, I now imagine I am holding her hands; that my arms are long and I imagine sending her a warm embrace; that my heart sobs yet is so full of love because she taught me how to open my heart. We will pray and wait. And darling Angelique, please know that we are here for you, too. Always.
With deepest love,
bella
angelique, i am pretty sure your mom is going to think that what you've done is one of the most thoughtful things you could have done for her. i am a mom too and it touched me very deeply.
thank you for letting us know what's going on, it's been hard not knowing. Please take good care of yourself and find the support you need also.
We'll all be praying for your Mom, your family. I'm so sorry to hear of your grandmothers passing.
take good care,
lori
Thank you for keeping us posted on Renee's condition. Know that all of us who have come to know her through her writing are thinking of her and praying for her and all of you her family.God Bless!
Bless you, Angelique xoxo
I'm one of the many who have keenly felt your mom's absence online lately ...
I love the goofy photo of your mom that you posted here ... There's obviously such a deep and willing-knit bondedness in your family ... This must be what keeps you all so sane and centered on love when there has been so much loss for you all ...
Please tell your mom I love her ... She has been such a cherished, wise, witty friend to many people ...
Be well, dear daughter of Renee.
Much love from Jaliya xoxo
Oh let's see, she'll probably say, "Oh Angelique!" and then kiss you. She is very proud of you Angelique, she loves you, Nadalyn and Nathan very much. But did you really do it without her permission? Hahaha! How brave of you. Thank you Angelique, a sigh of relief has been heard around the world, literally. What a sweet loving face your mother has and you Angelique are her daughter true and through. You can always talk to me Angelique and it will never be considered rambling. Thank you again and take care. Please give your mother a hug and a kiss for me and you have to say it is from me and when you kiss her on her cheek please make a loud smacking sound and say MWAH!
Angelique - I am so sorry to learn that Renee is in hospital just now. I send love, hugs and will keep her and the family in my thoughts. Wishing you all lots of strength. Caroline
Angelique, thanks for this update. I was worried about your mum's health the last time she posted about the damned bats. Wish your mum better amd I hope the bats vacate their nests soon. By the way, that was a great picture to upload. I agree with you, she won't be mad. It captures her true self: wit and humour.
Many thanks.
Greetings from London.
Prayers to you and your dear mother.
Hello Angelique. Thank you so much for the update. Hard times for your family ... all. As you can see from the range of comments here, your mom has inspired a whole host of people from all around the world to reach out and support one another in love and friendship through good times and bad. It's quite something isn't it? She's quite a woman. I'm sure no small measure of that spirit is in you too.
I hope Renee is starting to feel the benefit of the hospital tratment. I continue to pray for you all each day. xx Jos
Ugh! too many pages up! I think I just sent you the wrong comment! Please delete it, Angel
Now to the real one. Thank you for posting this. As said in the Wizard of Oz, "I think I shall miss you the most"
That's how I feel when I don't see your mom around my place. I worry and selfishly miss her. I know all's right in the world when she drops by for a cup of coffee.
This made my day. Thanks again and give her my love~rick
Thanks for posting this. I am sure she is not upset with you for doing this.
I know she will feel better. Morning will come...a new day will begin.
RENEE! BIG KISS- on the LIPS!
ANGELIQUE
Your love and your concern for your mom shine through this post
and we reflect our love and concern right back to you
and your Mom too
topangamaria
Hi Angelique,
Thank you so much for letting us know about Renee. I was talking to my husband saying that it was so strange that Renne hasn't entered my giveaway so I came to her blog to see and found this sad news. I know she is a strong angel and soon she will be feeling better.
My prayers are with her.
Love
Flor
ps. Tell her I entered her name in my giveaway.
Angelique, I've been out of sorts myself this week so am just getting around to friend's blogs...I am sorry about that...please tell your Mom that she is always in my bedtime prayers.
You are such a sweet daughter to reach out to the blogging community to let us know what is going on with your Mom. I am so sorry dear, this is all so much for you to loose your Grandma and have your Mom be in so much pain and not be able to talk to her about what you are feeling.
sending you all much love and light and healing energy
Thank you, Angelique, for posting this update about your dear mother Renee. She has been such a source of inspiration to so many people, and the stories she has told of her family, of you all, are amazing. Please give her my love and prayers for healing.
Angelique,
Thank you, especially for the photo of your mom smiling, childlike and giving off such love in that photo...just like she is. I hope the IV's help her get stronger and help the pain subside, wish her comfort and brighter days ahead.
Thank you Angelique for letting us all know what has happened and I hope Renee feels better soon.
Thank you for talking about your Mum. My prayers are with you all. God Bless.
Deannna
Angelique, your mom was in my thoughts today - that is why I popped in to see how she was doing. I am so sad to hear that she is suffering - I hope that some of the warm thoughts I am sending from Africa will reach her soon - they are filled with sunlight and tinged with a sea breeze. Strength and clarity and love - I wish that for you all.
Thankyou Angelique.... our prayers and thoughts are with you all... Please send all of our love and kisses to your beautiful mother..
Kath
xoxoxo
What a wonderful daughter you are! Please tell Renee prayers are flying to her from Deb...will hold all of you in my thoughts and hope that she will be home with you very soon.
Dear Angelique,you must be scared and longing for your mothers touch and hug.I do hope and wish dearest Renee will write us verry soon a lovely story her self ,but Im happy that you are here too,thank you for your strenght and update on your moms health.
Hugs,love,light and peace,hang in there,Aleksandra
Angelique thank you for the update, I was worried about your mom. She is the sweetest woman, and deserves to get better. I'm sending healing thoughts and prayers her way. We need her sassiness back on this blog!
hugs
betty
Thank you for letting us know how your Mom, Renee is! I hold her in my healing heart and send her wishes for no pain and no vomiting and no discomfort! I feel so sad to know that she is going through this. I send blessings and love.
Angelique,
Thanks for this update. I've been on the road, but the few times I have checked my blogs, I haven't heard from your Mom and I've been worried.
I, like you, can't imagine anything but that she will finally get better.
xoxo
Hi. I'm just back to see how Renee is doing? My mind has been on her all day long. I hope she is doing better. gloria
You have a good heart in wanting to keep your mother's bloggers upadated.
I know that you and your family is going thruogh a tough time. May God hold you close and comfort you, may the angels help bear your burdens.
Oh, man, I am so sorry the Renee is having such a tough time, and I really appreciate you letting us know.
OMG Renee... I hear you are in the hospital... I can't believe I didn't know...
My love and friendship are with you my dear sweet kind friend...
You are a light in my world...
So much of my love is pouring out to you~
PAttee
Amgelique ~ Thank you so very much for letting us know what has been happening with your Mom..and she is not going to kill you...she will understand, trust me.
She has such joy in her face, so much life in her eyes. Know that although we have never met, she is prayed for every day. We'll be waiting to hear from you and her ~ sending lots of love and hugs to all .....Nancy & Angus
OMG I just got this ~Renee is in the hospital...
For some reason I was thinking it was your grandmother not your mother Angelique.... but I knew your grandmother has passed...
I am going to pray so very hard that your mom, one of my best friends on this earth is going to come home and share the her life with you.
Please send my her my love and hopes.. she is my gypsy sister... she'll know what I mean~
Love love love Pattee
much love to your mother. she is a special woman of big heart.
angelique, would you mind sending me your email address?
so many thoughts and so much love are now directed toward you Mom and you and your family. there is strength in those thoughts and that love.
you are an incredibly brave and wonderful daughter. my jess is your age. your mom and i have talked about how much we love you.
kj
Thank you for the caring update. I think the grief is making this much worse. Renee is a caring person and sends out so much positivity into the world. I trust that that positivity will rebound back to her and assist in her healing. Our love to Renee and you children as you care for your mom. I hope Jacquie is resting peacefully as well.
how is she doing now angelique, i woke up today with thoughts of her on my mind and rushed to my computer to check if there was any news.i hope those awful bats have left for good and she is rehydrated and comfortable, give her lots of wonderful kisses from me, feel so helpless - wish i could help.
Angelique
What a lovely daughter ... Renee and your father have made a very good job of bringing up such a caring and kind woman.
I stumbled on Renee's blog several months ago and she makes me weep and smile, sometimes in the same post. In the past, she has often dropped by my daft ramblings to make a comment or share a smile and I have missed her of late though put that down to all the other sad events in your family.
When you give her a hug, can I piggyback a small cyber hug as well?
Siân (normally known as Mad) x
Thanks Ange...Take care my friend.
xo
Tracie
Oh Angelique,thank you for letting us know about your mom. I am so sorry for her pain. I love the pictures. I will kwwp all of you in my prayers. Love to you all. Barb
Angelique,
I can't explain how I love your mom and your family through her. I feel like I know her the way I would if she were my neighbor and I love her like she was family. And the strange thing about that is I didn't even know what she looked like until she gave us the gift of a photo in December. I can't wait to tell her how I had pictured her, a tall statuesque woman. Powerful and strong. Of course I always knew she was beautiful. I had a laugh at the petite woman I saw in the picture. But to me, your mom will always represent strength, her spirit is as strong and powerful as I had imagined her as being.
I was so sorry to hear about your grandmother, she was obviously an exceptional woman. Look the wonderful family she left on loan to the rest of us. And we are grateful!
Tell your mom she has to feel better soon because I have some exciting news I want to share with her! I'm still betting on her and I love her to pieces!
Take care Angelique,
Love, Jamie
Angelique...Thank you so much for posting on the condition of your mom. I don't think she will be to upset with such a loving daughter. Please tell her how much we are praying for her every day!!
That's a lovely photo and so kind of you Angelique to let everyone here know how things are. My very best wishes to you and Renee.xx
Thanks Angelique for giving us the update. We loooooove Renee, and can't to have her back here writing again. Give her a big schmooch from me and tell her I said 'hey'.
Angelique, thank you thank you so much for taking the time to post such a helpful and explanatory post for us. I know I have been worried sick about Renee and I know all her other friends have been in the same worried state. Do give her our love. I know you cannot possibly mention us all individually but just tell her we are all wishing her well and loving her for ever.
I am glad she is in hospital where they can monitor her properly and provide the right treatment but so so sorry that she is in such pain and being sick and unable to eat. That is so awful.
With loving, healing thoughts sent from Ireland,
Gina
xxx
Dear Angelique,
Many thanks for posting about your dear, sweet Mum.
We have been so worried about your Mum and glad that she is in the hospital and hope that they can get everything sorted, so she will be back home again with you all soon.
My thoughts and prayers have been with her so much.
Please tell her, she is loved so much.
Hugs
Carolyn
Dear Angelique
Much love and prayers for your mom and your family. Prayers of healing and hope, wrapped in love to surround you and your family so you all can keep your hope alive. To your family, Please take care of your precious self as you each rally with your mother. That would make your mother feel less anxious as she fights to find that life balance.
I send her my love as always.
DPG.
Angelique,
damn.
And then after that
love.
So much love it gets disgusting 'round these parts. Send mine to your mom. Keep some for yourself.
love erin
xo
Renee has been an angel to me ... please send her my love.
Oh Angelique, I am so glad you let us know about your darling mom. I miss her writing so! Is there anything at all that I can do? Let her know that we are praying and hoping and loving her.
Dear beautiful Angelique...
thank you so very much for taking the time to tell us this news.
Big love to you and your family.
I love your Mum xoxoxo Ribbon
(Ps) When i was in hospital having a mastectomy
my wonderful bloggy friends kept a candle
burning for me on their blogs...
If like me you would like to do the same for our dearest Renee
follow this link... the Angels can see it too
http://www.animationlibrary.com/animation/25473/Realistic_candle/
thanks so much for the update. thinking of you guys and hoping the pain issues get sorted soon.
Hi hon..just popping by to see how Renee is feeling this week. Please give her a gentle hug for me..she and all of you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Love, Sarah
Renee, You are in my prayers, I hope you are home from the hospital very soon. I am very sorry about your mom.
Best Wishes
XOXOXOXXO
Landon
Thank you so much for letting us know. You can be sure that your mom will be in my prayers. She is a very special lady and has touched so many of us.
Dear Renee...
You are so very loved, both on this side and in heaven. I wish I could take your pain away. I know everyone wishes that they could. You have been such an inspiration and teacher to us, that when it does become your time to go, you will be so so missed. I will be sending you prayers and love and peace. If you decide to go to heaven, then that is okay. I know you must be very very tired. But if you do, just know that you will never be forgotten here on earth. That you are our angel and loved so much. I love you Renee. I wish I could give you a giant hug, and lay next to you and just hang out and talk. Love you Love you Love you...xo
Angelique- please give your sweet Mom a big hug and kiss from me-Kelly. Thank you for the post. She is a beautiful lady-you must be so proud.
Love, Kelly
You and your family are in my prayers each and every day. Thank you for taking the time to post when you have way too much on your plate to deal with.
Big Hug
(((((((Renee)))))))
I will continue sending healing energies to Renee. Thanks for updating us, Angelique.
)O(
Dropping by to leave love and light to you and your whole family.
Blessings all over all of you.
"My Mom is Probably Going to Kill ME"
Ang, I think not. As you say the blogger friends are so much a part of your mom’s life. I know your mom is so proud of anything that you do, and I do know that she will be absolutely amazed at how lovingly you did this for her.
Take care Ang, you could never ramble too much for me, as AJ and your mom say, "Together Strong” keep the strength and know that I love you so very much.
Prayers will forever flow.
Love you
AC
Dear Angelique, dear Renee, thinking of you, praying for you, hoping for you.
Love, Catherine
Hi Angelique...thank you for keeping us well informed about your amazing Mom....please send her love and hugs from us....I hope she feels much better soon...and I hope those bats leave for good!!!
Hugs
Diana
Dearest Angelique, I'm awed by the incredible strength that your mother has and hope that your whole family will always be given the same amount. She has touched so many hearts and I believe that prayers are being sent to her even as you read this. Keep the faith and always pray for the best. Hugs and kisses to Renee and your whole family. oxxo
please send her my hugs and regards. she has been in my prayers and singing her favorite song in my quiet time.
regards
Angelique,
Thanks so much for posting. I was wondering how your mom was doing. Please send her my love.
Antonia
Angelique,
Thank you for letting us know.
I was wondering where your mom was.
I was worried.
My prayers go out to Renee and to you and the family..Please keep us in touch and let us know what we can do.
Love and Hugs,
Katelen
Just coming to say hello to Renee and family today. I love you.
xoxo
Angelique, Thank you for keeping us posted on your mom. She is such a special lady. Bless her.
Angelique,
I'm so glad that you posted this. I'm so sorry that your family is going through these trials. Please send my love to Renee. She looks wonderful in the photos, just as I remember her from my visit to Winnipeg. You're all in my thoughts.
Sandy
Angelique
Thank you for writing. She wouldnt mind at all. She is a special inspiration to everyone. How can you not love that lady...you cant. She loves you kids and is so very proud of yall. You need to get it out, it has been a LONG year for all of yall. Please kiss her on the forehead and tell her "Love you Lovey" for me.
How is Jacquie?
You can carry the blog and talk about it all, thats what it started as for your mom. A way to escape, vent and get off your chest so to speak.
I hope she was able to get the cards I sent to her and Jacquie...You are always welcome with open arms into my and everyones lives.
Kiss Jacquie on the forehead also for me and say "Love is strong with her family"
Thank you- my blog dashboard has not been keeping me informed and dropping blogs UGH..
xoxoxooxoxoxxoxoox to yall from Texas
Thinking of you all every day!! Sending lots of love! Silke
Beloved Renee, your name is a constant prayer upon my lips, silver light spiraling up to heaven, connecting us with eternity. Light is stronger than darkness, love is stronger than hatred. Your love is a light in this world. I love you with all my heart. **blows kisses** Deb
Angelique,
What a beautiful, strong, amazing daughter you are. I am so sorry for all that you and your family are going through and for the loss of your grandmother. Thank you for letting us know what is going on with your mom. I'm sure that must have been so hard for you to do but I'm sure she will appreciate it...I know I do. God bless you....we won't stop praying. xxxx
My wife says connecting is everything! Just wanted to add my presence to the collective thought.
Be Well Renee!
sending all the love and prayers in the world to your dear precious mom. she is an angel to so many of us, as you can see. there is just something about her....something about her being. she is extraordinary.
i am also sending all the love and prayers in the world to you and all of your family. be strong and know how loved you all are.
xoxoxo
hearts,
k
www.heartwingsisters.blogspot.com
sneak a little squeeze in to your mom from me!
You are all in my thoughts and prayers.
Renee I am thinking of you and remembering how you were one of the first persons I met when I started blogging. Please don't be in pain and remember that I am thinking and praying for you every day. ::love::::hugs::I'm going to the studio to get the little book you sent me and re-read it. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Just want you to know Angelique thinking about Renee and praying for her daily.
What a sad story! I hope your mother gets better soon and you can find that time to heal from the loss of your dear grandma.
I´m a stranger to you and your Mum as I just followed a link to your blog (from Flor Larios´s blog), but I wanted to leave you a note with well wishes. Sending much strength and positive thoughts your way.
Respectful ~ Bettina
Sending warmth and light and comfort your way...you are a beautiful daughter...and you make your mom proud.
Angelique, just to let you know that I have a candle burning for Renee as does my friend Yaya. We're passing the candle on so that there is more prayer. I picked my candle up at Julie's and passed it on to Yaya and we will continue till Renee comes home. Give her our love.
Im new here..but I Hope that Renee feels better soon, I am going to follow to see how things are..Thank You...Take Care and God Bless.!
Dear Angelique,
Thank you so much for sharing! I've been thinking of Renee since her mom passed. I really hope she feels better soon. She is in my thoughts and prayers.
Hugs,
Lisa
Angelique,
I have been so worried thank you so much for filling us in. I love your mom and my heart goes out to you and your family. Tell your mom I love her and miss her.
Let me know if there is anything I can do. Take care my dear, your in my thoughts and prayers!
xo-junie
flickering candles are appearing all over the world, on behalf of the great love for renee khan, special woman and senior angel.
♥
Dear Angelique,
Thank you for writing to us. For letting us know what is happening to your mom and your family.
I wish wasn't. I'm really very SORRY and breaks my heart to read.
Will you hug your mom (our Renee) and tell her how much I love her? Also let her know that good energy and many prayers are for her.
Please also tell her may she be at PEACE ~
Thank you dear one again for writing to us and letting us know.
Love to you and your family,
Constance
Thanks so much for letting us know, Angelique! You are always in my thoughts and prayers! Hope Renee will feel better soon!!! I'll pray for this! God bless you all! Please, give Renee a kiss and a big, warm hug from me!
Lots of love, Sanda xx
As i ring my bell for Barry today... i think of ~You~ Renee as the Angels draw near to you... with ~Love~ Always xox
Hello Lovee. Stopping by to leave you some love and tell you how much I miss you. I am hoping your beautiful Angelique or Nadaline is reading all your love notes to you. Oh, Renee, there are candles burning on blogs all over bloggy land for you. And to think, you are the spark for all that light. Good Grief, you're like the Olympic torch! Together strong, and you have an army out here lifting you in prayer. Sending you all my love on the wings of a desert sparrow. **kisskiss** Deb
If you get a minute Angelique, please let us know how Renee is doing. It's so worrying. ~hugs~ to you and the familyxx
Gina
x
Angelique, thank you and please keep us posted. She'll be in my thoughts and prayers.
thank you for sharing. my heart goes out to you and your entire family. do take care.
many blessings.
Angelique
Thank you for updating us! We have grown to love your Mom so very much through this medium, through her words. Tell her we are thinking about her and praying for her and that we know she will be back home soon. She is a fighter and she has a lot of love pulling for her.
Angelique, I haven't been here in awhile, but please let your mom know I was here today. And let her know I'm praying her pain will leave and give her some peace. Just hold her hand gently and tell her Deb knows what she is going through and is praying for her.
I'm sorry about your grandmother, what horrible timing, well, I guess there is no good timing for death.
Much love
Love and light to all of you.
Say hi to Renee for me. I love her.
Hugs
hundreds strong, standing watch, armed with love...
we will hold you up, angelique. ♥
I couldn't sleep, so I thought I'd pop in and send some good thoughts, along with all the others who are sending them as well.
Candles are burning and love is flowing.
Thinking of you all, hoping things are going "OK"
'woke up this morning and you were on my mind'....sending you big kisses and to angelique and everyone around you, hold renee's hand today and tell her how much we all love her. tell her to keep on keeping on. xxx
Dear Angelic, Thank you so much for taking the time from such a painful time to let us know how your dear Mom is doing. She is such a beautiful woman and her courage is an inspiration for everyone. I am praying for her and all of the family. Please accept my condolences for the loss of your cousin and Grandmother. You are close in our thoughts.
Good Morning Lovee. You're always on my mind. Have you any idea the mark that you have made upon the hearts of all of us...you, the muse of so many artists...refined to pure love.
Blessed be God forever.
Blessed be His Holy Name.
Wrap our Beloved Renee in the comfort of Your arms, free her from this pain. Bless her with peaceful time with her loving family, a family who exemplifies The Holy Family. Only Love is real. Only Love remains. Love and only love. Amen.
Hi Angelique - I am just stopping by to see how your Mom is doing. Please give her my love, and a kiss on her cheek (two kisses), and tell her I miss her. Take care of yourself, sweetie. xox Pam
Good morning Renee. I come here to say I have been praying for you. Every day. It's morning time here and I usually pop in around this time to read your post and leave a comment. I leave a comment today to say, please hurry and come home. We miss you and are thinking of you all the time. My candle is lit for you and there are so many other candles lit for you. Hurry! We miss you.
I am always at a loss for words in the face of circumstances in which I feel helpless to help.
I wish you and her and your family all the best, and tell her I am sending her my lovely smelling e-jasmins to give her spirit a lift.
angelique,
i am just stopping by to see how u, your mom and all are doing. also, wanted to let you know i am praying with all my heart. we are all here not only for your mom but for u too, sweet angelique.
xoxoxox
linda cardina
My heart aches with this news and wanted you toknow I have your Mother, Renee, and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
SuZi
Thank you so much, Angelique, for the update, and for the clarity of your comments.
My eye surgery has kept me from being able to follow what has been happening in your lives. Now that I can read again, I feel so sad discovering all this.
Blessings to your mom, and whole family. I know this has not been a good time for any of you. I pray you some peace, and courage, and joy.
Hugs from the Bear "next door."
P.S.: 180+ comments say a lot about how much your mom is loved!
Dear Angelique, just a little note to let you and Renee know how much I miss her here in blog land! I am thinking of you all all the time and hope that things are improving for your sweet mom and also for Jacquie! Sending all my love! Silke
Dear Angelique--
I am really angry at myself for not seeing this post sooner! Argh! Please send your mother my love. And yes, please let me know any info and/or addresses so I can send cards/care packages for you and your family.
much love to you all, angelique. thank you so much for the update.
Angelique
Thank you so much for writing and letting us know how your mother has been. I love dear, Renee, as she has been an encouragement to me in my new life and battling tumor/liver issues. My heart breaks and aches and I wish so much I could be there by her side.
I wrote this for a friend of mine when her mother passed. It is never easy loosing someone especially a mother. My heart reaches out to all of you. May God Bless and Keep you and may His Face Shine upon you and my He give you His Peace. I'm send healing thoughts and prayers to you dear soul. You and your family are in my prayers.
A Mother's Love
While raising children
she did her part
A Mother's Love
comes from the heart
Changing diapers
and cooking too
A Mother's Love
shines through and through
Keeping us safe
teaching right from wrong
A Mother's Love
is oh so strong
As teenagers
we tested her will
A Mother's Love
guided us still
The college years
brought her new trials
A Mother's Love
kept hopeful smiles
Finding love
a new life did begin
A Mother's Love
welcomed them in
Starting a family
gave new appreciation
A Mother's Love
such steadfast dedication
Busy lives
yet never far apart
A Mother's Love
always dear to our heart
Age advances
we come back and embrace
A Mother's Love
wrinkled, yet full of grace
Elderly frail
mother changes her style
A Mother's Love
come sit for a while
Twilight's near
as we hold hands
A Mother's Love
our heart commands
At her last breath
Peace and Comfort come
A Mother's Love
we gain strength from
Feathered wings
surround us with love
A Mother's Love
now comes from above
Grief is short
when we remember when
A Mother's Love
is free to live again
Find comfort
in God's Love and Light
A Mother's Love
still hugs you every night
Written with Love and Light,
by Nina P
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