Wednesday 9 March 2011

Grateful No. 5

Only when you drink from the river of silence shall you indeed sing.

And when you have reached the mountain top, then you shall begin to climb.

And when the earth shall claim your limbs, then you shall truly dance….

For what is it to die, but to stand naked in the wind and to melt into the sun….

And what is it to cease breathing,
but to free the breath, from its restless tides,
that it may rise,
and expand,
and seek God

~~ Kahlil Gibran ~~

Thank you all for your love, I am truly grateful.



Cindy said...

Renee, those words are truly beautiful. I continue to pray for you and your family. I may copy down those words, it made me think of my father. BIG HUG!

Anonymous said...

Holding you and your family dear to my mind and heart!

Lots of love!



Delwyn said...

I hope that your Mother is at peace and her love surrounds you all

Thinking of you

Mother Moon said...

what beautiful words... I count myself blessed to have found you and experienced just a touch of this story... Such love and such grace I have seen..... such a true honest blessing.

Peace and love to you and yours at this time, however despite the sorrow, I know that when it all passes you will all be ok...

BT said...

That is a beautiful piece Renee.

Jackie said...

That is beautiful and the image is gorgeous.

secret agent woman said...

That is beautiful. May the peace of that wisdom carry you.

Bonnie Zieman, M.Ed. said...

Thank you for that verse - so full of meaning.

It is quite impossible not to love you Renee. Take care of your dear self.

Anonymous said...

All that spirits desire, spirits attain.

Kahlil Gibran

With love


Baino said...

No. I am grateful. I never expected to be this involved in your life, your trials, your philosophy, your affection. Thank you. I am thinking of you at this time. You are cursed and you are blessed . . .but still you have so much grace that I feel inadequate and unworthy. Thank you Renee for showing me that life is marvellous, that family is worth treasuring and that despite insurmountable odds we can share, and smile.

(That was so fucking gushy I'm ashamed of myself. But I mean it.)

brandi said...

~gorgeous words to ponder this day...grateful indeed...thank you so...brightest blessings~

pRiyA said...

And thank you for yours. You have the knack of giving me just what I need through your blog. Like what you've chosen in this post now.

Unknown said...

Oh I love love this poem , always have.
And that picture made me gasp.

As do you, with your strength and class, and beauty.

thinking of you and your family. Prayers and peace be with you

yoborobo said...

Renee, I am thinking of you, my friend. Love to you and your wonderful family. xoxoxox Pam

Debra She Who Seeks said...

What a beautiful poem! Thinking of you all today.

LDWatkins said...

So beautiful. Oh, to be able to think of death that way! My thoughts are with you daily. God Bless.

Sarah Sullivan said...

Good morning hon..not sure where my comment yesterday went..but I left you hugs and love..I understand this one ...I do Renee. Love you bunches and sending more swan hugs to you. Love you my friend, Sarah

mermaid gallery said...

Such words of wisdom and comfort.... Nourishing our souls with positive thoughts helps us all find our way. It's a scary world and what comes next is the greatest mystery of all. Being prepared must make a difference.

Annie said...

So beautiful. And you are so beatiful and strong.And your mom is singing and dancing with your dad and Sheldon and spirit. She lives and will FOREVER.
Love you. xoxox

Calli said...

Love these colours!
a treat on a this grey friday.

you are a joy, Renee!
have a good weekend~xo

Unknown said...

Hi Renee!!!

Always know that you are never have your family here and in heaven...and you have us...


studio lolo said...

I love you dearly.


Deborah said...

Dearest Lovee, it is your love that kindles our love, increases our spark, for you have been refined to Pure Love. You have been given such a Big Work, and you have done it so very well. Your Mom was given a Big Work too, more than 13 of them, and oh how pleased she has made The Lord. Can you even begin to imagine your Mom is sitting at the Table of The Lord, preparing The Banquet. I do believe, I do believe. As I write this, I feel my arms become weak, my heart becomes the opposite of a stone, and love just flows from me to you. I truly love you, Renee.
♥ Deb

Anonymous said...

I thank you too, dear friend. Stop by my blog today and you can read why.


The Strawberry Mallard said...

You truly will never walk alone Renee ~ remember that ~continuing to pray for God to give you strength to endure~

Hugs, Nancy & ANgus

a fanciful twist said...

I walk throug my garden after reading your last 5 posts. I send all the love my heart and soul can muster. Thre are no words to convey what I want to say.

So, I send all I can that is good and kind and love, through the trees and the winds. And know, they will reach you...

All my love, Vanessa

Linda Sue said...

Roller coaster life, girlie! My favorite ride at the carnival is on the bench with a sno cone watching the crowd go to join me?
Sorry for you loss of mom- that is some one who will not leave you really- she's still around...but in a better ethereal body- no pain, breathing deeply and seeing all.

Debra Kay said...

I saw the picture and I felt like it had been left for me-then the familiar words from my beloved.

Thank you.

Julie said...

Hey Renee, I am grateful as always to have you in my life. I don't know if my original comment went through, but I'm very sorry for your loss. I'm sure your mom is dancing with Sheldon right now.

jacquie said...

this could be mom, as she was always ahead of her time and it looks futuristic to me....
the words are beautiful and
i truly believe mom is breathing more freely now than she ever has .... god will give her the strength she needs for this journey of her life renee.
she is also free from worrying about us...on a brighter note i can only imagine her face when she sees peter and pauline......
together strong
i love you

Silke Powers said...

Loving you all - all the time!! Silke

Michelle said...

I love you Renee. I just want to tell you that.


lugnet said...

Lovely paintings!! I come back to you!!
Have a great wekeend!

kj said...

my beloved renee, i wrote this when i lost a good friend and i offer it to you now, knowing you know this already


If I were dying tonight,
Lying in my bed with plastic tubes and half-filled bottles
on the small table nearby
and bedpans and oxygen there to diminish any shame,
Perhaps forcing my breaths
with the strength of a desperate parent
who implausibly and frantically lifts two tons
of mangled steel off a broken daughter—
If I were dying tonight and I wished to tell you
What will astonish you,
I would tell you this:

Be sure to notice white flowers in the moonlight,
Because the softened glow is like no other.

Appreciate the lingering scent of garlic on your fingers,
Because healing is possible from that alone.

Tell the truth when it matters least
Because then you will be sure there is another honest person in the world.

Always spend the extra money for dimmers
Because light that builds in intensity and then gently fades is
good for your spirit.

Over and over, ask yourself, “What is the lesson here?”
Because then you will forever be a student and never a victim

Never believe for a moment that the world is going to hell
Because you only need to love outside yourself to know better.

If I were dying tonight, I would tell you all this
Because astonishment is brethren to curiosity,
Which leads to observation,
And dedication,
And finally appreciation.

If I were dying tonight, perhaps there would only be minutes,
Perhaps only seconds,
To tell you that I will leave with all the love
I have ever felt, and ever given.
I will take it all with me, tucked under my angel wing—
The accumulation of grace from every breath I have ever taken.

Here’s what’s astonishing: I will also leave all that love behind,
It will be imbedded in my daughter’s stunning light and my partner’s quiet
It will guide my friends and coworkers when the layoff comes.
My brother will remember how I tried to do my share
And Joey will find someone else like me to help him tame his fears.
Even the woman at the grocery store that day I let her go ahead of me—
will remember how we were both comforted from that simple act.

If I were dying tonight, I would also tell you
That within, under, because of, and from the little moments
Comes all the wonder and astonishment you could ever hope for.
The little moments that aren’t so little.
I would tell you to let those moments astonish you.
I would tell you this because it is all you need to know.

Anonymous said...

I love you Renee...

Anil P said...

And such is the cycle of life that spurs us on.

While there're mountains to climb, and rivers to ford, it's to the garden we shall retrace our steps, to take in once more the fragrance of a blooming flower.

And while we're there the warm morning sunshine shall bathe us, and turn our melancholy thoughts to the cheer of the awakening world.

And we shall keep company and awaken with it, again.

soulbrush said...

i hope you can stay strong yet again, just know that your mom is now with her hubs and sheldon and they are all sitting on a bench looking down at you with eyes filed with love.

nollyposh said...

So beautiful is Truth x

turquoise cro said...

SEEK GOD and FIND HIM!!! Beautiful post Mrs. Renee! Sending YOU and YOURS prayers and my LOVE! Praying for your mom still, LOVE is SWEET!

Rosaria Williams said...


angela recada said...

How beautiful these words are. What magical images they conjure up. . .

You are always in my thoughts during this difficult time. Please be gentle with yourself and let others take care of you once in a while.

Love to all, but especially to you and Jacquie.

Bella Sinclair said...

I have so much love for you. Please take care of yourself. And please do not tell me not to worry, because I do.


YayaOrchid said...

What a beautiful poem! If only it really were that simple.

Adrienne said...

Hi Renee,

You don't know me and I hope you don't find it too weird that I found your blog today. I am your moms upstairs neighbour although I didn't know her, as I just moved in a few months ago. We coincidentally shared a hairdresser and she had told me about your mom (and her name) when she found out where I was moving.

I typed your moms name into google this afternoon after I noticed that her Christmas lights hadn't been on. (When I first moved in I noticed your mom was "borrowing" hydro from the parking lot to have lights on her balcony and I thought that was pretty funny.) On windy days we could hear her wind chimes in our apartment and I found them very comforting, they reminded me of my own grandmother who passed away a few years ago. I was looking forward to having the windows open and hearing her chimes at night when the weather was warmer. I was sad to see her empty balcony this week.

I'm not sure why I looked for her name or what I thought I would find, after all I only know her through a strand of Christmas lights and a blue plastic butterfly, but I just wanted to let you know that even strangers feel your mothers absence and that I am very sorry for your loss.

My condolences to you & your family.
- Adrienne

Sue said...

Kahlil Gibran was a brilliant thinker and wordsmith.

(back at you kiddo)

Anonymous said...

Remember my dearest Renee..." the love you take is equal to the love you make." (Beatles)and you have given more than your share of love to all of us.


A.Smith said...

On Pain
Kahlil Gibran

Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding.
Even as the stone of the fruit must break, that its heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain.
And could you keep your heart in wonder at the daily miracles of your life, your pain would not seem less wondrous than your joy;
And you would accept the seasons of your heart, even as you have always accepted the seasons that pass over your fields.
And you would watch with serenity through the winters of your grief.

Much of your pain is self-chosen.
It is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self.
Therefore trust the physician, and drink his remedy in silence and tranquility:
For his hand, though heavy and hard, is guided by the tender hand of the Unseen,
And the cup he brings, though it burn your lips, has been fashioned of the clay which the Potter has moistened with His own sacred tears.

Thinking of all of you with much love and hoping for comfort in the sweet memories of those who are now home.


Margaret Ann said...

I doubt if I have ever read anything more beautiful...I hold you and your family in my thoughts. Thank you for showing us how to love so richly.

Tom Bailey said...

This has a very meditative feel to it and I really like it.

Thanks for sharing this grateful idea.

Tom Bailey

Anonymous said...

I have been reading your blog and my heart goes out to all that you have gone through with your mother and your dad and Sheldon. I am in Pattee's Odd-doll ning class and she has updated what you have been going through discretely. Many prayers go up to God for you at this time. The passage on your page is beautiful and touches the very soul of those who read it. You will see them again as I know I will see my own dad who died of cancer in 1997. I miss him so much, you can't help but ever miss those you love. Teresa Swanson in California. May you heal with the touch of your friends' love.

jacquie said...

that is so beautiful and truly
enlightening. thank-you

love jacquie

together strong
love jacquie

tomkiddo said... you Renee :D

Unknown said...

Thinking you you. I feel the presence of lost loved ones at all times around me. No one is ever gone if there is love. Love never dies.

The Strawberry Mallard said...

What a beautiful spirit you are Renee~ sending you peace and warm hugs, as you continue on this difficult journey!

You are a child of God!
Hugs, Nancy

clairedulalune said...

Beautiful, beautiful words. ((((((((HUG))))))))))))

Unknown said...

Oh Lovey, would do anything for you and jacquie. I mailed you some cards on Tuesday or wed, and one for jacquie out of the 3. Since I dont have jacquies address lol.

Love ya Lovey..Love ya Jacquie...sorry hands hurting today cant type for diddly.


Rick said...

Rainy- Thank you for the love you are. I guess it's true. We must learn to drink and climb as we go..
love you, too, jacquie. Be well as you can, guys. ~rick

Annie said...

Love you Renee. Thinking of you.
Jacquie, I am sending you big hugs and love too.

Rob-bear said...

Being grateful is good. I think you have many things for which to be grateful, and I see you enjoying those.

And Gibran is wise!

Lori ann said...

Love and peace to you dear Renee. I can't think of anything more important to wish you. Love and peace.
♥ lori

Karin Bartimole said...

Dearest Renee, I am holding you close to me heart and sending love and prayers. May your sorrow be lightened, pain eased, and mind clear and at peace. I love you, Karin

Angie Muresan said...

You are beautiful, Renee. I love you.


Manon said...

Hi Renee,
My heart goes out to you and your family! I know your mom is now among the angels. Be strong, my friend.

love u

@eloh said...

I hope you can read this Renee, I've been sending my condolences these last several posts but they haven't been getting through. My prayers are with you.

Ms. Becky said...

When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree,
there will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see,
there will be an answer. let it be.

Let it be, let it be, .....

And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light, that shines on me,
shine until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, .....

Renee, I know not what else to are in my thoughts all ways...

Art by Darla Kay said...

You ARE so loved! And you love so many!

love, Darla

Donna, The Decorated House said...

Gibran... brings me comfort and lights the way for me often.
I was touched to see that his writings warm your heart as well.

And thank you to your friend KJ, too. Your words are beautiful.

Hugs, Donna

Loni Edwards said...

That is so beautiful! Thank you Renee. This post made my heart swell. Love it!

Draffin Bears said...

I love you Renee.


Poetic Artist said...

You are loved my friend.

nollyposh said...

StiLL keeping you in my Heart x

Barbara said...

I'm sending you my deepest sympathy. And lots of hugs.

kj said...

together strong

together strong

together strong...

Unknown said...

I found you blog thru my online friend, Joss...hearing her heart so filled with concern and love for you I wanted to come and get to know you too...Renee my heart aches for you today for all that you've gone thru, and I know God has his arms wrapped around you because he loves you so. I will be praying that God gives you strength as you face each day...I will be praying that you find peace from the pain you suffer with, I give you a very gentle hug from someone who cares!!!

drollgirl said...

hey renee. i just watched a movie that might be of interest to you. it is called "the beautiful truth" and it discusses dr. gerson's theories/methods for treating cancer. i can't vouch for the accuracy of the statements made in the movie or in dr. gerson's writings, but it sure was interesting to hear.

Mary Ellen said...

After the hard work of witnessing the departure of a dearly loved one, please take time to rest and be kind to yourself. Your family is surrounded by an ocean of love.

Karin Bartimole said...

missing you, my friend, and hoping your heart is healing. love you, K

kj said...

Unknown said...

i love gibran and your work is good

Suecae Sounds said...

I love both the image and the quote.


A Cuban In London said...

And thank you, too, for being such a marvellous human being. I'm sure your mother was very proud to have such a strong and beautiful daughter.

Greetings from London.

secret agent woman said...

I am sure it has been a long, difficult weekend. I wanted to start this week by sending my love to you and your family. ♥

Silke Powers said...

Sending you all my love, dearest Renee, to you and your sweet family! Thinking of you all the time!! I love you! Silke

Unknown said...

Thinking of you and your family.


Anonymous said...

Lots of love to you all Renee! You must be going through some hard times right now! Bless you!

Annie said...

Renee, Thinking of you and sending you hugs, kisses and much, big love.

Marie S said...

Renee, I love you.
kj has said all that there is to be said and so wonderfully well that I have no other words to add except...
I love you!
Thinking of you every moment.

rochambeau said...

You are A Light of the World ~
Thank you that you are YOU.
It's been a pleasure to read your Jacquie's comments too ~
Twogether Strong ~

Know my prayers are with Y O U and Jacquie and your family!
Love and Hugs,

yoborobo said...

Dear Renee, I am thinking of you and Jacquie and sending you my love. I am not very good with words when things like this happen. I just wanted to tell you that you are both in my heart. xoxoxoxo Pam

Sydney said...

Renee, I have been thinking about you so often these last two weeks. It's good to hear from you. This is a favorite verse; My father was arabic. He was so proud that Kahlil Gibran was of his people, and he gave us each his books and quoted him on important occasions. It felt very right that indeed, these were the closing words that I said at his funeral.

Gberger said...

Dear Renee, you have been in my thoughts as it has been quiet here. You remain in my thoughts in love. XOXOXO

Momo Luna S!gnals said...

This is very beautiful. Just stopping by to bring a hug and wishing you all strength and peace.

Bridgett said...



Dean Grey said...

No, thank YOU for sharing your journey and struggles with all of us, Renee!


Deborah said...

Oh Lovee, when I read this the first time you posted, I thought it was about your Mommy.

You were saying goodbye to all of us. My gosh you are truly the most amazing woman I have ever known. I love you, Renee, and I miss you already. Well done, my friend, well done.

**blows a million kisses** Deb

studio lolo said...

I was talking to KJ and she asked me if I took this as your saying goodbye.
I didn't, maybe because I didn't want to.
But I remember reading it and getting a sinking feeling.

You're amazing grace, my dear friend. You have no idea what a hole you'll leave on these blogs and in our collective hearts.

Love you forever. peaceful journey. God speed.

mansuetude said...

such a poet is one who "knows"

such is you.
blessings... you choose Love.

Thank You!

xxx said...

I miss you
thank you for being so wise

Eugen Caitaz said...

My heart, ever will be with you!!!

GlorV1 said...

I wondered about this post. Now I feel that this was you letting us know that you loved us all and it was time. Oh Renee how we miss you. You are one who will never be forgotten. You've live in our souls. God Bless You.

Melo said...

This made me cry! I adore Gibran, but had never read this one.

I never met Renee, but I found out she passed through other bloggers. It seems she was well loved by many.
Must'a been a nice woman!

Love and peace.

A Blessed Day in the Life... said...

I stumbled across this blog and wanted to express that I am so sorry for the loss of your mother. May God continue to bless you and keep you. HIS love endures forever.

A stranger in PA

Aarthi said...

When I look back in your blog
this was your goodbye to us.It makes me cry to think how strong even in your last days on this earth.

Sandy said...

I'll add to the wishes here. It's funny, I haven't been back here since I read about Jacquie, and then today, for some reason I felt compelled to visit. It makes me wonder and rejoice about the power and love of Renee. First year anniversaries are so very hard, second year less so, and third year comes back to bite.

I will make Bottles of Hope this weekend on her behalf.

Much love to you and your family.

Anonymous said...

My heart, my thoughts, my prayers are with all of you. I thank God everyday for knowing and sharing with your Mom. I miss her beyond any words that could be written.
Your posts are so beautiful. Love always, Sally xoxoxoxo

Lori ann said...

Bless your heart, and your family. i wish i had something memorable to say, but i loved your mom, she was a woman like no other, so i'm sure you, her daughter, are too.

Lisa said...

I just heard this song for the first time and it made me think of Renee and you. ♥ It's called Angel. I love the idea of the sun shining up at her.

Kathleen said...

I am just after reading your previous post on the eve of your late Mothers passing.I think everyone goes through this nearing a first anniversary,I certainly did after my Mom died of cancer in our local hospice,I went through every hour of her last days,right to the end.Its because you can remember everything leading to the end its so shocking it takes a while to leave your mind.Now 5 yrs on I still remember but the edges (the pain of recall)gets a bit blurry and I prefer to focus on happier times.Hopefully this peace of mind will come to you too in time.

Jackie said...

Today I thought of you Renee, I miss you so !! I feel so privileged to have known you for however long .
Love you ,

A.Smith said...

Oh nines! haunting like hidden shadows in a night walk. The pot is whistling and the table is set just there, by the buttercups. Come my darling, let's have some tea and forget about the nines. You are in my heart forever, life after life.

Dawn said...

What amazing words Renee, I stop by when I can and hope you are continuing this journey into the future, I hope you and your family are well and I often read back through your mum's posts, she was truly an amazing woman with such warmth and humour.

Come back soon Renee


GlorV1 said...

Always thinking of you Renee my friend. Missing you and tending to your rose in my garden. You would have loved the scent. Kind of like Jasmine and Gardenia combined.Love you!

Yoli said...

She is always in my heart and thoughts. What a force she was. I can still feel her strength.

Aleks said...

Hi! Just a warm hug and warm greetings from me!
Aleksandra :)

Robin said...

Sigh.....just *checking in* goes on.... BUT...Renee's gentle wisdom amd racous humour live on. She KNOWS we all know...

I know you are busy with life and children...but need you to know how much Renee imapcted my life. (And still does.) Not a day goes by when I do not think of her.
Your Mum was one in a gazillion....

Sendig many, many, MANY hugs to you, dear Angelique, dear Camille and to Wahid...... none of Renee's blogging family has forgotten ANY of you.

Love, always,

♥ Robin ♥

A.Smith said...

I thought of you all day yesterday. We were at the oncologist and I was more often than not distracted in the heart, as you and I used to say.

I wish I could erase the 9th from all my calendars. I do.

I miss you, I guess it will get better with time, but for now, it is like a new shadow of myself, this missing you. I will make tea, white without sugar - don't laugh - I will make us some scones and maybe drinking it together will make some of the sadness go away for a while.

I miss you. Please pass the milk.

Robin said...

Sending you ALL love and continues on ....but, Renee continues to support us with her courage and humour. ALWAYS. Not a day goes by when I don't think of her - or of Wahid, Camille, Jacquie, Sheldon....or you, dear Angelique.

Love to al,

♥ Robin ♥

Jos said...

Do you know Renee ... I think I'm starting to get it now. I know ... slow learner! I miss you dear heart. Always xx Jos

kj said...

that i come to visit here and find this post. thank you, angelique. this is the one for sure.

i think of you all commonly and regularly, always with love. someday josephine and domenic will only have to read these comments to understand how deep this love


Robin said...

I stop here to *refresh my soul* read Renee's miss her....

I think of you, too, Angelique...of Wahid, of Camille and of course all the *wee ones*...

Renee's love is STILL here....the power of this one truly amazing woman lives you, your family - and in us...her blogging family... I have been going through some dark days this year...but Renee's spirit amd heart continues to bring me light and strength.

Sending you all love,

♥ Robin ♥

Jaqi said...

I like many others still feel the need to visit with you here , even though you are gone. You made such an impression on the lives of many , and helped so many in ways you will never know. Sleep well my friend, you are greatly missed x

Robin said...

Just *little ole me*.... the seasons are about to change again.... I am getting ready to fly back to the Northeast visit Lo and hopefully KJ.... and my thoughts turn, as they frequently do to Renee. I would not know any of these wonderful women had it not been for your magnificent Mum. She held out the key - and helped me turn the door to a new life, with new friends. What a gift she gave me!

I wonder how you all are doing....Wahid, YOU, your beautiful children, Camille...

I keep each and every one of you in my prayers and deep in my heart.

I love Renee....and I send love and strength to all of you. I hope you are all moving forward to this Autumn.....I know Renee is nearby to all of you. Angelique, I hope you feel your Mum's arms around you.....cos' she is there.

Love, always,

♥ Robin ♥

Annie Lightbulb said...

Sending love to you all! Changed my blog account but wouldn't wish to miss out on you guys, beautiful Renee family! She is still very loved and missed here. Loads and loads of love to you all!

Robin said...

Almost Thanksgiving...and I have so much to be thankful for.....Renee.... you DID change my life and inspire me to be a better person and let go of all the pain I went through in 2009...
You remain a CONSTANT in my heart and in my prayers.

Angelique, I hope you are beginning to feel the rays of the Sun and the sparkle of the Moon shine upon you and all the Family.
You ALL remain in my heart and prayers.

Love from San Francisco,

♥ Robin ♥

Anonymous said...

To Renee's family. I don't know if you'll get this or not, but I am thinking of Renee today. Two Christmases ago she send me a Christmas card that I have carried with me in my bag from that day forward. I keep it close to me because I enjoy her spirit about me. I only display it at Christmas because I selfishly want to keep her near me the rest of the year.

I wish for her family to have a wonderful Christmas and all blessings for the coming year.

I love you all.

Robin said...

Sending all of you my love and best wished for an exceptional 2012. May this New Year bring you health and strength and joy.


♥ Robin ♥

clairedulalune said...

I just came here today, because I was thinking of Renee, and I miss her. Much love and hope for all your family in 2012.xxxxxx

Yoli said...

Renee I miss you and I think of you often and pray for your lovely family.

Unknown said...

Stopping by to say that I was thinking of Renee today.
She lives in so many hearts.

sending love to all of you..

juliaD said...

Thank you for being you....x

Nancy said...

Oh, Renee!! I miss you and think of you, still. I wish I would have believed that you were going to die. I would have said so many more things. I'm sorry I stopped getting in touch. Thank you for your friendship. Thank you for your wisdom and love!!


Here is Mayfly,
It is her first day on earth.
It is also her last.
Mayflies only live for one day.
But is she sad?
Not at all.
She is happy to be alive!

This isn't any old day.
This is the best of days.
She lives for each moment.
She sees the world begin,
She hears the crack of dawn.
And bathes in its golden glow.
A billion buds burst open.
All for her!

Marion said...

I think of our dearly departed sister, Renee, every time I read this passage...and so many others. I miss her every day. Sending love to you and your precious family....Blessings!!

Robin said...

Two years.... Renee lives all of all things beautiful and wise. I miss her.

Love and Continued Strength to you, Angelique and to Wahid, Camille and all the children.


♥ Robin ♥

Aarthi said...

Remembering you Renee

Anonymous said...

Dear Angelique,

I was thinking of you and her, yesterday and today. Have not signed in via my blog. Know that my thoughts are present. I miss her. Much.


(Clarity in Wonderland)

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Deborah said...

Hey Lovee! I knew this was your goodbye the day you wrote it. But as you wrote to me the day I told you that I was going to miss you so much, you said that you would always be with me...and you are. I have felt you even stronger, guiding me, since Gary's diagnosis. And I want to say once again, I love you. Deborah

Love Quotes said...

Great and truly touching! Another of my favorites:

They tell me : If you see a slave sleeping,
do not wake him lest he be dreaming of freedom.
I tell them : If you see a slave sleeping,
wake him up and explain to him freedom.

- Kahlil Gibran, as quoted in A Spiritual Treasury


Deborah said...

Hello Lovee! I know. I am weird. But sometimes I just have to stop. I believe in life everlasting. I feel you in my soul, telling me that it will be okay...I know where Gary will be. He said he will wait for me in the snow bank near chair lift #3, where our story began. I do believe it's true. I miss you Lovee, but mostly I am so grateful to have known you. **blows kisses** Deb

Deborah said...

Hi Lovee. I began to read your words and for a moment I could not breathe. I feel the weight of you holding me. I am so thankful to have had the privilege of knowing you. I carry you in my heart. **blows kisses to heaven** Deb

Jamie Lott said...

Merry Christmas Renee. Miss you!

Robin said...

I am thinking of you, beloved Renee and thanking you for being there for me when I most needed a friend. You are NOT FORGOTTEN. I am where I am today - because of your love...

Angelique, I send you and all your wonderful family (including Wahid)
many hugs, prayers, strength and love.


♥ Robin from San Francisco) ♥

A.Smith said...

So here I am, as always. Yesterday it was Barry's day and today yours.

Why did I have to let go of two people I love so dearly and with so much yet we had to share? I read and re read your cards and your emails, I wish I would have recorded some of our conversations because I am afraid that I will forget the sound of your voice, as I have forgotten that of my beloved Mother.

Once Barry asked me if I could have anything in the world what would I ask for. I told "to hear my Mother's voice one more time".
Yesterday I was looking for something in my atelier and a card
fell right at my feet. I am sure I don't need to tall you it was the last one you sent me for Valentine's and I felt another sliver of my heart falling into that dark pool of missing you, missing Barry, missing the spirit and the comfort, the humor and the irreverence you both shared. I miss you darling, I know in my heart of hearts that I will never stop missing you. And I will always hold on to the memories, I may forget the sound of your voice but I will never will forget what we were to each other. That is a promise.

Life after Life forever.

Robin said...

Renee, you and all your family were thought of on the 9th and many of us blogged a Special Renee Post...

As I have said before.....we carry your spirit with us...always.

Love and Love and More Love,

♥ Robin ♥

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Snowbrush said...

"And what is it to cease breathing,
but to free the breath"

They gave me a bit too much morphine in the hospital one day, and I imagined that I no longer needed to breathe. It was such a wonderfully freeing feeling that the only thing that could have made it better would have been if the nurse had stopped yelling at me to do that which I no longer needed to do, that is to breathe.

Your mother meant a lot to many people.

kj said...

ah renee, miss you like the dickens. what an impact you've left for so many.

nobody is swearing so much on the blogs anymore....

love your pal kj

Unknown said...

Today, I went to the beach with my children. I found a sea shell and gave it to my 4 year old daughter and said You can hear the ocean if you put this to your ear. She put the shell to her ear and screamed. There was a hermit crab inside and it pinched her ear. She never wants to go back! LoL I know this is completely off topic but I had to tell someone!

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Robin said...

Almost 2014... you, dear Renee, have been in my thoughts a lot this December...I have been quite ill..I remember with crystal-clear clarity what your last few posts were like...and I am stunned with your openness, your honesty...your courage.

You see, my dear are STILL providing encouragement and hope to us. I have changed so much in the past were my jumpstart into's a gift I can only try to repay by living my life with some of your openness and courage.. and I am trying to do so.

Angelique, I also think of you, of Wahid, of the *children* who are growing up year by year... YOU are the embodiment of steer your family into the Future with grace, strength and ...I think..humour!

May 2014 bring you peace and joy.

Love to all - always,

♥ Robin ♥

GlorV1 said...

Thinking of you this month of March Renee and dedicating your rose bush that is thriving in my garden. Still missing you. Love you.

Jamie @ Peach Street said...

I keep hearing that song by the Killers on the radio and I think of you every time.

I'm on my knees looking for the answers. Are we human or are we dancers?

Ces Adorio said...

One day, I was organizing a pile of papers and I saw a card you wrote to me and my face broke out into a great big smile and I said "oh wow, crazy." You, Bella and I spent so many crazy nights together. It was morning in japan though. I picture you kaughing so hard and banging on your keyboard. What a gift. Such blessing that today the memory of you continue to give joy and happiness. Now very few people have that ability and you were full of it. Thank you for letting me be a part of all that. Tsup!

A.Smith said...

Like a pilgrim I come here because here is where the memories are. How is it that the heart cannot forget what the mind may? I dread the 8ths and I dread the 9ths.

I have stopped making scones, what is the point? I don't have you and I don't have my Beloved to share them with, no tea, no laughter, only that void as big as the Universe, that it is my home now, thinking of all the words we left behind and reaching in the dark for the ones when we were filled with hope for tomorrow, for the rest of our lives. Hope. I wish I knew what it really means.

Now you are gone and with you my sense of loss is overwhelming as I have no one to share the things I shared with you. Without Barry and without you, life is an endless road backwards, looking for something I know I will not find.

I know you are out there, I sense it not because I believe in Heaven or Hell, but because I believe that true friendship like ours never die.
Because the bond with the Beloved is never broken by death, and because I hope you and Barry got finally to meet among the stars.

Life after life forever.

GlorV1 said...

I was thinking of you Renee. I wanted to say hello and send my love and friendship. It's winter right now and cold. Soon it will be spring and your rose bush will flower. ::hugs::

Snowbrush said...

Oh, my goodness, I too miss you, Renee. One thing is for sure, and it is that heaven doesn't have a good Internet connection, because otherwise, I know you would be posting.

I LOVE you so much, my darling Renee.

GlorV1 said...


LaWatha said...

Just thinking about Renee and hoping she somehow knows how much she is loved and missed by all who knew her- whether in person or like me, through her blog. XOX

Yoli said...

I miss her and I think of her still, her strong voice and spirit. She was incomparable and I am glad though I never met her in person, I met her soul in this medium.

Yarrow said...

I still think of her and miss her comments on my blog, especially the rude and innapropriate way she had of looking at things sometimes. Miss you

kj said...

i'm here tonight, renee. it's been a while now. the blogs have lessened but the love remains. i think of your children and family and i know you live within them. our grandchildren, renee--they will always know us, if not in deed, in words and memories.

you will always be my dearest friend. thank you for everything.

love always

Secret Agent Woman said...

I read a comment from you on my old blog and felt a little stab. It was one of your always-loving and supportive comments. I miss you.