Thursday, 23 July 2009

Times Three No. 3













Have you ever been as lucky as I am to have a sister like Jacquie in your life? If you have, then you know just how lucky I am.

Wednesday

Colette and I go to the hospital to see Sheldon at 8:30 a.m. When we get there, Sheldon is talking with Shelly and Joey. Joey stayed overnight with Sheldon.

All day long we hear the stories that he will be operated on today. He won’t be operated on. They are doing another scope. They aren’t going to do the scope.

He is getting more blood transfusions and has had four units so far this morning. We think he may be released again. Sheldon and I have discussed that when he is released he will stay with me at our house.

Sheldon and I are talking; whispering to each other really.

I have told Sheldon he is a warrior now. “You are a Warrior now Sheldon. This is war and you are in the battle of your life. You can do it. Whatever you need to do, you can do it.” He is 25 and knows that he is up for the job.

“Are you okay?” ‘Yes. It is what it is and I will be okay.’ “Yes, dear Sheldon, you will be.”

Ben and Chrisy come in and they will stay with Sheldon and so Colette and I leave. We will come back in a few hours as Ben is going to stay the night with his Mom in the hospital. Jennifer will come and sleep the night with Sheldon.

I go get tea and then go to the 5th floor to visit my Mom. I put on a gown, gloves, mask, and glasses. I love my Mom so much and we have a nice visit. It is a hard day and she is worried. Mom tells me that I am a wonderful person. I tell her that I love her.

It is 1:50 p.m. I go see Sheldon; Ben tells me that the doctor and oncologist have both been up. They are going to give him a scope and the oncologist believes from everything he has seen that it is gastric lymphoma. So there is huge hope for it to be cured with chemotherapy.

It is 2:30 p.m. and I need to go home, I need to sit for five minutes, I need to have a sleep.

I go to bed at 4:10 p.m. and Ben calls me at 4:30 p.m. to tell me that they are going to give Sheldon the operation either tonight or tomorrow. The scope showed that the tumor is still bleeding and it won’t stop.

At 5:30 I get out of bed and go talk to Nathan. He is sick and has bronchitis. Wahid and I go to St. Boniface in the emergency department where Sheldon is still waiting. Gord is sitting with Sheldon and tells us they showed him the pictures of the scope. The tumor is bleeding all over the place.

Suzie, Camille, and Jeannine come in. Jennifer arrives to stay the night. The nurse tells us he is finally being moved to the 4th floor which is where the surgical department is.

Suzie starts crying and telling me that Jacquie’s operation has changed. They are doing a bigger surgery on a bigger part of the brain.

I tell Wahid, let’s go and see Jacquie immediately.

Jacquie is exhausted. Jacquie is in pain. Jacquie and Ben and Wahid and I sit and visit. Jacquie kind of falls asleep and then wakes up.

Jacquie and Ben tell us that the surgeons have a new plan. Jacquie will have a bigger part of her brain cut into. They are going to take a frozen square out. They will get the pathology to look at this square and it should only take fifteen minutes to determine the where, when, whys of this cancer. If in fact it is cancer which they are absolutely certain about. Jacquie’s head will be left open while they determine all of this. Then they will continue the surgery by marking the parts of Jacquie’s brain where feelings are (We all forgot to tell them that Jacquie's brain is nothing but feelings. Feelings for everyone but herself). They will scoop out the cancerous part, or as much as it is safe to do; after Jacquie will be given radiation and chemo.

The operation should take about four to six hours.

Ben is Jacquie’s oldest child. Jennifer is Jacquie’s only daughter. Sheldon is Jacquie’s youngest son.

All of Jacquie’s children are amazing and she is so proud of all of them. They are so amazing. Ben is sleeping over in the hospital with his Mom. Jennifer is sleeping over in another hospital a few miles away with her younger brother.

I tell Jacquie how much I love her. She tells me not to worry about her as she is in shut-down mode, I tell her unfortunately I’m not in it, and she tells me well hurry up and place yourself there.

Jacquie’s operation is at 9:30 a.m. today. I tell her that I will see her in the morning. I tell her I am afraid and she tells me that she will be okay. I kiss her and hug her. Wahid kisses her and hugs her for a long time. Ben and I are both in tears.

Wahid and I leave and Ben finds us half way down the hall.

‘Auntie Renee my Mom said to tell you TOGETHER STRONG.’

I’m bawling and tell him that I have to go back and see her and tell her TOGETHER STRONG too.

The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
He leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul:
He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name' sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: For thou art with me;
Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies;
Thou annointest my head with oil; My cup runneth over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the House of the Lord forever

While I am telling her TOGETHER STRONG and practically lying on top of her; she tells me to tell all of my angels to pray for her. To pray for her and her son that will be operated on; on the same day.

Please everyone pray and send the most wonderful and loving energy to my darling sister and her amazing son.

God please.

87 comments:

Michelle said...

It's already there lovely you

xxx

Marie said...

Keeping them in my prayers. xxoo

Ribbon said...

sending all big love your way now and forever....xoxox

Jaliya said...

(( Praying ... ))

Dear heart, no matter what happens with your loved ones ... They are loved ... They are loved ... They are loved ("Times Three No. 3"!) ... as are you; as are you; as are you. xoxo

(( Praying ... ))

PurestGreen said...

Oh, Renee. My thoughts are wishes are with you all today.

Delwyn said...

I am praying for your family Renee.
With Love, Delwyn

Caroline said...

Renee, please know that I am sending your family all the strength and energy I have. You are in my thoughts.
Caroline xx

Rikkij said...

Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. I'm envious of this incredible loving bond running through your family. Maybe some good comes from evil after all. Hopin and prayin. ~rick

ingeniouslycreative said...

I will be praying. xoxo Carol

ingeniouslycreative said...

I will be praying. xoxo Carol

ART ON DISPLAY said...

I will be praying. xoxo Carol

ingeniouslycreative said...

I will be praying. xoxo Carol

Chrisy said...

With you baby...with you and yours...across the miles...

Sarah said...

All day every day. Strong together is true.
Sarahxx

Mim said...

Good f'in LORD Renee ! What the hell!!
Many prayers. Many many many. and then more....

secret agent woman said...

I'm glad you posted this early - I will indeed be sending my prayers and holding Jacquie in my heart throughout this surgery. Hang in there, Renee, you'll get answers soon.

Anonymous said...

It is my job today, to pray all day for your dear family. Sending my love your way.
Tracie

kathy hare said...

I will light a candle for them my darling Renee...
xoxoxo

Anonymous me said...

Renee I will continue to pray. I will pray really hard I promise. xxJ

Audrey said...

Renee, I am praying for your sister, for her loving son, for you and the entire family. I am sending healing thoughts. Together strong - we are all with you on this one, standing together, so that Jacquie, Sheldon and the rest of the family can remain strong.

Love and prayers to you
xoxoxo

Ces said...

Even for a strong woman and a loving family, this is TOO MUCH to bear. What cross you bear dearest Renee. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Take care dearest one.

Manon Doyle said...

You are a big family that will stay strong through this! I've got my family in Canada praying for all of you!!
Don't forget to take care of yourself Renee.

love,
manon
xo

studio lolo said...

...and so it shall be.
The prayers are on their way.

xoxoxoxo

Tammy said...

Dearest Renee,
We are praying for you all.
You and your family will remain in our prayers.
Love and Many hugs and Blessings!
Tammy

one little acorn said...

Yes, I understand how lucky you are to have a sister like Jacquie and how scared and desperate you must feel. And I am sending all my love to you right now and hoping hoping hoping that you are all ok. Thinking of you Renee.
Together strong.
xxx

Debra said...

Renee, know that I pray for all of you and that I have also asked people who visit my blog to join me in prayer. Stay strong and have faith. All will be as it should, may God bless and keep you and yours.

Meghann LittleStudio said...

God is with you Renee, and all of your family. I am praying for you, Jacquie, your mom and Sheldon.
Actually, my dad had a similar thing happen to him as Sheldon - he woke up feeling bad as usual (he had ulcers) but when he went to pee, it was blood - he went to the hospital, had a transfusion, they found he had lymphoma in his stomach. He did chemo and radiation (and found out he also had cancer in his thyroid at the same time which was also treated) and just over 6 years later he is cancer free and healthy. I will pray for the same result for Sheldon. My love, hugs and prayers to you and all of your family. Stay strong, you will all get through this!

yoborobo said...

Renee - I have been praying and praying and praying. I will not stop.
Stay strong. Love to you all - Pam

Arija said...

My dearest Renee, you sound like you are all on a runaway bus. God help you all. I can only pray for the greatest good of all concerned. I have too often seen whar havoc can occur if we pester God for something that is not right in the greater scheme of things. We can only pray for the RIGHT thing to happen ... I know you are hurting quite dreadfully right now, maybe someday you will understand what I mean.
For now, I send you all my love and my prayers are definitely with you allgastru.

Great-Granny Grandma said...

Dearest Renee, I am praying with all my heart.

Artistic Accents by Darla said...

Renee, I hope you can feel the love and support being sent to you by all of us here in blogland!
Prayers are going up and will continue!
Love, Darla♥

soulbrush said...

i am in tears, i cannot believe this is all happening to one family, how cruel..i am praying and also worried about you, you need to rest and recharge your batteries too dear one. how humbled i feel in your presence.

Marie S said...

I am praying Renee harder than I have ever prayed before. Bless you and your family Renee. I have come to love you all through your stories.
xoxoxoxox

Sarah said...

I'm sending healing energy and prayers for you all hon!! Love you bunches and hate to see you go through more..and your family going through so much!! Huge gentle hugs and love, Sarah

Yoli said...

Sending my love and prayers to your sister and her son.

pinkglitterfae said...

dear Renee, I can't even tell you how saddened I am to hear of all this. I have no words of wisdom, but want to offer support, and let you know I am holding you all in my prayers. May you all stay strong for each other
hugs and many blessings,
betty

Clarity said...

Dear Renee,

Jacquie, Sheldon, your mother and you are in my prayers. Be strong friend. God bless you all.

Marion said...

I said the 23rd Psalm aloud with y'all with tears streaming down my face. Dearest Renee, I am praying constantly for miracles in your family, your beautiful, beloved and precious family. (((HUGZ)))

Daria said...

I think of you and your family often and hope and pray for nothing but the best for all of you.

Sending love, courage and strength.

Deborah said...

In the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. You are needed here right now, at the side of Jacquie and at the side of Sheldon as they surrender themselves to the hands of the surgeons. Lord, guide the surgeons hands and their minds, that they are filled with your knowledge of what needs to be done. Bless Jacquie and Sheldon with long lives. Bless Renee with many more years. Blessed Mother Mary, sit with the family, bring them Your peace. I call upon the power of the Name of Jesus Chirst. Amen.

Angela Recada said...

Love and prayers,
XOXOXOXOXOXXOXOXOXOXO
Angela

karengberger said...

YES! Thank you for the Psalm. XO

Allegra Smith said...

I pray to the Goddess of Mercy, QuanYin protector of women and children. This morning I have lit her candles and they will stay lit until I hear the good news. They will be fine.
Maybe a little worse for the wear but fine. Take care Renee, stay strong. The war is just beginning but there is love and hope to win it. You are not alone and neither are they.

PS: the word verification is "march". Onward we go to bring to the Universe the prayers for help.

Julie Fillo said...

i am praying with all my heart.

kj said...

all of this sucks. i hate that this is happening to your family.

i am honest-to-god praying and i wish we were the kind of friends where i could make blueberry muffins for you or rub your neck and shoulders, run errands, make you laugh, or just sit there with you. selfishly this is the part of blogging i don't like at all.

jesus h. christ, renee.

be strong. but be weak too. make sure you get hugged bigtime.
xoxox

Pattee said...

REnee....
I have told everyone I know to pray also
Today...
My day will be of prayer for your sister and nephew..and for you ~
Much love~
Pattee

Coastal Sisters said...

I am sending all my love and prayers for your sister and her son....and also to you and all the family.

Love,
LuLu~*xoxo

Lori ann said...

praying now renee.
together strong.
amen.
please dear god.
please.

Holly said...

together strong...from Holly in Los Angeles...

linda cardina said...

oh my, renee. i can't believe what u and and your family is going thru!!!!!??? i will be praying all day...

thank u for sharing this with us all. the more prayers the better. u have many people that love you and are praying at this time.

love u renee.
linda xoxoxox

Elizabeth said...

We are praying. And praying. And praying. Please.

Artful Chica said...

Renee, I will send my league of Angels your way,as well as, some Reiki light. You and your family are in my Prayers.

Bobbi said...

Oh Renee, my heart cries out to you in this time of your pain and your and your families illness. My deepest and warmest thoughts, wishes, and prayers are with all of you! I'm so sorry that you and your family has to suffer in this way. Please try to remain strong for your health and those that need you the most right now. All my love and prayers and good thoughts are being sent to you.
Hugs and love...
Bobbi

Debra said...

done

Anonymous said...

Oh Renee, What can I say??I have been away for a week and just opened my computer to check your website. I am overwelmed. When did Jacquie take ill?Prayers for you all. Love, Barb

lakeviewer said...

Yes, Renee, our thoughts and prayers are with Jackie and her boy and her entire family and you and yours. You are all amazing souls and you have a lot of love to give and to share with each other. God has you all in His hands.

Deborah said...

Renee, I have been lifting you and your loved ones up in prayer without ceasing. You have not left my mind for one minute today. Sending you all my love and prayers. Deb.

Noreen said...

My prayers are with you all. Please Renee, take care of your self.

much love and prayers, Noreen

Sonia ;) said...

Every prayer and blessing in my soul i sent from MY FAMILY...to Jacquie and Sheldon.....I am sending every ounce of me to them...

Love ya Lovey
xoxoxoxox S

Silver said...

Sending love and prayers your way, my friend.

TOGETHER STRONG.

Fresh Mommy said...

Oh my goodness, bless you and your whole family. What a trying time, what an ordeal. I'm praying for you for strength, for your whole family for strength and for peace and for those needing surgery, that it will go well.

*hugs*
~Tabitha

Draffin Bears said...

Dearest Renee and Family,

I am praying hard for you all, sweet one.
Sending my loving thoughts and positive energy that you will all get through this awful ordeal.

Love & hugs
Carolyn

LDWatkins said...

Dear Renee, I wish for the words to give you comfort, but I don't know what they are. Just know that so much love is being sent your way by so many friends, and so many prayers are being said for you and you beloved family.
Hugs and love to all of you, Lynda

Baino said...

You have no idea how many prayers are being said for you and your family sweatheart, millions I'll warrant. Together strong indeed.

Baino said...

My comments arent sticking but I hope my prayers are!

oneartistjournal said...

I haven't visited you for a while..I was good busy..I forgot how when I visit you your words don't just touch me like other people's words...they pierce right through to my heart and cause for something to happen..that something cannot be described by words..I'm sorry...
"Together Strong"..Orly

Anonymous me said...

Still praying Renee, really hard as promised xxx Jos

Anonymous said...

Our prayers are with you and your family Renee...

Love you
Yvette

Cori G. said...

Renee,

I've been over here several times peering into your world. Today I'm stopping by to say "hi". It seems life has dealt you and yours more then I could possibly imagine.
Be strong in the Lord. He is there to walk with you as you travel this road.

You are in my prayers ;-).

xoxo Cori

ArtPropelled said...

Prayers, positive thoughts, courage and strength to you.

kj said...

saturday

merciful loving god: you cannot do this. you cannot. this is too much for one family.

please correct this difficult course. please.

The Gypsy said...

Tons of prayers, good wishes, positive energy, loads and loads for you all.

turquoise cro said...

I am PRAYING for all 3 + 1 who I just met last month ((((((Renee))))))!!!+ all your family and friends! Try and get some rest!

dragonflydreamer said...

I have been offline and just now came straight to your blog from my reader. I am so sorry about all that you and your dear family are going through. I am praying for all of you like crazy. Please take care of yourself and know that so many people love you and keep you and your family in our prayers. ((hugs)).

Momo Luna said...

i wish you lots of strength Renee and sending you and your sister and her son warm, positive thoughts and energy. A touching post and i hope everything will be fine.

Sweet greetz....

yoborobo said...

I'm praying for you, Renee. I am sending you my strength, and love. xox Pam

K said...

as tears are falling down my face Renee...I am praying...I am praying for the strength of Sheldon and Jacquie. I am praying for the wisdom of the doctors and hospital staff taking care of both of them. I am praying for you. I am praying for Wahid and your entire family. I am praying for Jacquie's other two babies. I am praying.

Wendy said...

Sending all of you loving, healing thoughts. Together stronger!!
Love and Light

Lisa said...

I am devastated my dear dear friend- i sometimes just don't understand the
reasoning and i am baffled by what some people are put through. the Divine powers are strangers to me.
I will light a candle for all of you xx

Allegra Smith said...

Thinking of you, Jacquie, Sheldon and the rest of the family. I posted something on my blog for you, so the angels that come there will send their good thoughts to all of you. Be strong, many of us are pulling for you and yours. Blessings and positive energy from here.

rochambeau said...

Dearest Dear Renee,
You, Jacquie and Sheldon are with my prayers. Together Strong. The Lord is our shepherd!
I love you friend~
Don't forget I'm here for you.

xox
Constance

linda cardina said...

i hope u and you family are doing okay. praying for u all. if u find a minute please give an update... i'm concerned.....

xoxlinda

Poetic Artist said...

A blogger friend sent me to your blog. I just want you to know you and your family are in my prayers.
I pray you have strength and faith.
Katelen

Kate James said...

Oh Renee, I am so sorry about your beautiful sister, nephew and your mum being sick all at the same time.

You are so giving of yourself to be visiting as much as you do when I'm sure you need to rest too.

I'll say a prayer for all of you. God bless xoxo

Anonymous me said...

Still praying Renee, really hard. I hope you are doing OK. My heart is with you. xx Jos

K said...

As i am sitting here letting this resonate with me...I have begun to pray. I am praying for Jacquie's strength and courage and peace. I am praying for Sheldon's strength and courage and peace. I am praying for the doctors wisdom and hospital staff's compassion. I am praying for you. I am praying for your calmness. I am praying for Jacquie's other babies. I am praying for ALL of your family. I am praying.

Daria said...

Praying for healing for you and your family.