Tuesday, 16 June 2009

I Sang To The Stars

My dear friend Bella lost her husband on Saturday. My thoughts are with you Bella.

Last night as I sang to the stars,
I realized they may be the souls of
former friends or of future children.

So, I sang louder and louder
and I thanked them for listening.

I heard their applause
and they thanked me for coming.
At the same time we both said
our ‘Your Welcomes,’

And as I watched them twinkle,
They watched me Shine…

~~ A Ship of Broken Hearts by Laura Duksta ~~


Deborah@ The Painted Nest said...

My prayers are with you dear Bella.~~~~Deborah

Anonymous said...

To Bella...I am so sorry! I can only imagine how difficult this time is for you - please know that everyone if blogland is walking beside you, hands at your elbow to help you when you struggle, to catch you when you fall and to carry you when you need to be carried. May your husband rest in peace.

Artistic Accents by Darla said...

So sorry Bella. My thoughts and prayers will be with you,

Oops! Desperate Blogger~ said...

What a beautiful poem Renee. I am so sure you are a blessing and a strength to Bella in all times, but especially now.

Michelle said...

Oh, that is sad. A beautiful poem Renee, just beautiful


Kelly said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you Bella.
Renee, that poem is so eloquent and beautiful.

Anonymous said...

Although I don't know your friend Bella, I know that losing a loved one is always a jagged pill to swallow.

I'm sending out caring energy to her today, in the hopes that it will gently fall all around her.


Sarah said...

Oh..I'm so deeply sorry. Sending hugs and healing her way. Beautiful poem hon beautiful. Love, Sarah

yoborobo said...

That is a beautiful poem, Renee. I'm not very good with words at times like this, but I will say a prayer for Bella, and I am glad she has you as a friend. xox Pam

Anonymous said...

Oh beautiful Bella, my heart goes out to you, send you my love.
Renee, I have used the mouth guard for a night and it fell out during my sleep lol! I haven't been as bad the last few days. Not taken as half the pain killers.
I have been eating more fruit and less chocolate. I don't think I have had a bar a chocolate for 2-3 weeks?
Mark is buying berries for me, even if it doesn't help anywhere else I feel fresher as a person. Don't feel as tired or ratty.
I have been shopping three times this week and made tea and thats not like me. So here's to berries!
I watched a program on tv. I forgotten what it is called. They have a young man in to hospital checks,scans etc. One who over eats, takes drugs or smokes, drinks heavily. Last week the man who took drug(heroin etc)and alcoholic was 26 years old and his damage was a biological age of 42 years old.
This week it was a man who over eat and binged drink alcohol.
He is 26 years old and his biological age was 54 years old. He had done more damage to his body with the pot noodles, crisps, chocolate, biscuits, cakes and fast food than the previous guy who was a druggie. This shocked me.
I have decided to eat more healthily with bio yogurts, fruit, veg, fish and am passing the cake stands very quickly,lol!
I am feeling the difference already.
I had been eating more cakes since the tooth/jaw saga as I couldn't eat much else, so got addicted to sugar I think.
Here's to a new me, tadaaaa!
Wow, this as been all about me again, tut, tut,me!
How have you been Renee, has the sunshine arrived in you garden and have you seen the new birds this year?

You are my sunshine!

Luv and hugs!


glorv1 said...

So sorry to hear that. It's always so sad to hear news like that.
I hope you are doing okay. You take care, keep your resistance up. My thoughts are with your friend Bella.

karengberger said...

What a lovely poem. I pray for comfort for your friend, Bella, and her family.

Deborah said...

Dearest Renee, is this Bella the artist you speak of? I am so very sorry. Beautiful picture and lovely poem. I am sure he heard you sing. Praying without ceasing, Deborah

Meghann said...

That is beautiful Renee, thanks for posting, my heart goes out to your friend
Hugs and prayers,
Meg xoxo

Ces said...

Ah Renee! A time for sorrow.
Yes we three and then four,
Play, not today.
She, Bella Sinclair,
The one we collectively ever so loved
So admired
And respected
And endeared.
It hurts to think that
Our Sweet Bella Sinclair is in pain and sorrow.
The Mental Ninja,
The Flying Nun
The Wit and Wisdom
The Wickedly Funny
The Great Retort
The one you have to resort
To get me to do what you want
Hardy Har! Har!
The One I will listen to
My beloved sister-friend.
My confidante.
My muse.
My inspiration.
My scarlet Fiesta in the snow
The best thing we can do
Is be here and be strong for her
And wait
When she is ready
To reach out and say
“Hey! Hey! Hey You guys!
Can you come out and play?”
We will be here and she knows
We never left.

Marie S said...

What a wonderful tribute to a dear friend!
That is so beautiful Renee.
Bless you Bella and your dear girls,
Love and huge hugs,

studio lolo said...

I can't wrap my head around the seemingly unfairness of things like this. I hurt deep in my gut for Bella and her babies.

This is a beautiful post Renee. She's lucky to have you as a friend.

Me too ;)


jacquie said...

sorry for the loss of your husband bella, my thoughts and prayers are with you. hopefully good memories you have shared will help you get thru this time of sorrow.

Marion said...

I am so very sorry for your friend's loss. Your poem is a loving tribute. Blessings....

Anonymous said...


I don't know your relationship to your husband, but I know that it is a sad time for you. I know that you are a caring person with inspirations for others, I have seen it in your bloggings with Renee and Ces, and how you have supported Renee and in your art-- such beautiful art.

To your sorrow, may it turn in time to happy memories...so sorry for your loss


Once Upon A Blue Crow said...

"I find an old photograph
and see your smile.
As I feel your presence anew,
I am filled with warmth
and my heart remembers love."

Warm thoughts and love,


Sue said...

Renee, my heart goes out to your friend Bella. My best friend's husband is currently in ICU and his prognosis is very grim. Prayers of support, strength and compassion go out to your Bella and my Joan.

The poem is lovely, thank you for sharing.


soulbrush said...

i was totally shocked when i read about this on kj's blog a few minutes ago. my heartfelt sympathy is going out to her immediately.

Jeannine said...

I am so sorry for your loss Bella. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Renee the poem is just perfect.

Love You Always
Jeannine XOXOXO

Yoli said...

I am terribly sorry for Bella's loss. Tell her we anonymous folks in cyberspace feel for her, that any loss is felt acutely for we are all humans. Beautiful poem.

Marie S said...

Beautiful Ces!
We love you Bella!

linda cardina said...

what a beautiful poem, renee.

it's such a sad sad time. there sure is a gray cloud hanging over blogland today and for a while until bella is back and with us again. i wish i could wrap my arms around her.

prayer and love are with our sweet sweet bella.

Sonia ;) said...

I am sorry for your Friend Bella's Loss. I went to her site for the first time ever and left a simple {{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}}}}. I can not imagine what it would feel like to lose your partner in life and keeper of all secrets good and bad. My heart goes out to her.

Hugs....to you and Ces in friends time of grief...

Sonia xoxox

~ ennui ~ said...

so very sorry Bella...........

Elizabeth said...

How beautiful -- my condolences, Renee -- to you and to your friend.

Coralie Cederna Johnson said...

So very sorry to hear this sad news. My thoughts and cares go with you and your friend.

Anonymous said...

Oh, I'm so sorry for your friend - that's so hard.

Hey, if you get a moment will you drop me a quick email at the address on my banner? have soemthing I need to tell you. :)

Marie S said...

It is the least I can do.
I feel so helpless.
I wrap her in mind hugs all of the time!
I love you,

Woman in a Window said...

Oh, Bella. Oh bella~

Ribbon said...

lovely poem...
it says a lot.

best wishes

kj said...

renee, this is a beautiful poem and sentiment. your presence in bella's life has and will bring her continued joy in the months and years ahead, and that is an unmatched gift that good friends give to one another. while i am so sad for bella, i am sad for you too--it is impossible not to deeply mourn.

i love you moon sister, and my thoughts and blessings are with you tonight.


Manon Doyle said...

I was so deeply sorry to here that Bella lost her husband. My heart goes out to her.
This is such a lovely poem for her!

Anonymous said...

This touched my heart in many ways...my Dad crossed over from cancer when i was 10, actually 2 weeks after my 11th birthday, and I spent years talking to 'a' particular star that became my connection to him...then as i reconciled myself with the grief, (many years later), i began to hear him and feel him all the time. But that star brought me a lot of comfort and I had a lot of conversations with him through that one bright beautiful star.
:) Love you more and more Renee.

Bella, he is still with you, it is just different, that is all, it is just different. You are surrounded with love, you are wrapped in love.

kj said...

i know renee. i understand that and i feel it too. i'm also confused. it seems unimaginable and senseless, of course, but the timing is beyond belief. so 'unfair'--that word we have to turn to because otherwise we can't make sense of it. but we also know ultimately it is not ours to question the greater plan. 'god', if i may call it that, has plans for bella. and i believe she will stand in the light and be whole. we know she will have her own angel watching over her and her girls.

you know that baino feels this deeply because she too lost her husband when her children were little? i imagine you and she feel bella's loss in private special ways. but please know that there are many people here in blogland who love and care about you so much and will be there for you whenever however needed. you bring comfort to my life, renee, and i am grateful for you.


Karin Bartimole said...

a beautiful tribute Renee. The wave of prayers and caring thoughts generated from all these comments will certainly create a warm embrace for dear Bella and her girls.
xox K

Daria said...


I get blood work every cycle and it is fine ... even thou I am very tired.

Regarding the sleeves ... I'm still using the first one ... I'm just real careful with them. Thanks a million ... you are so thoughtful.

How are you doing? Really doing?


Julie said...

Oh sweet Bella...I am so terribly sorry ~ will keep you in constant thoughts and prayers xx

Marie S said...

I am saying good night, sleep tight.
Love and huge hugs,

Chrisy said...

sending loving thoughts to your bella...loved the verse...i cannot look at the stars without smiling and feeling the closeness of those I've loved who've gone before me...ta

Dave King said...

Lovely. Says it all.

Mim said...

lovely post and poem. I am still stunned by what happened to Bella - the strangeness of it all. Things like this just don't compute with me.

you take care....

BT said...

A lovely poem for Bella, Renee. Very thoughtful and Ces's post is beautiful too. We will be here for her in time.

Ingrid Mida said...

What a lovely poem!
While no one can replace Bella's husband, I'm sure that she takes comfort in having as loving and thoughtful friend as you.

kj said...

gooood morning m.s........


studio lolo said...

Just checking on you Raven Sister.


Ces said...

Renee dear, come on over for a few minutes. I wonder if Bella will blush.

Ces said...

Well, you are so sweet. If it is okay with you, then it is okay with her. You know how she is? She does not want all that attention but I can't help it. Thank you Renee. You will like what I have planned for the next one.

Sheeanna said...

Hellllo lovely lady! Well yes, Mr. Beefy is indeed a Pit Bull. A huge one at that haha! His dad is about 70 lbs and they told me that Beefy is bigger than his dad was when he was so small, Beefy is twice the size of all of his siblings.

Mr. Beefy will definitely be intimidating because he is a pit and because he is going to be so large but he is such a sweetheart. We are very careful to raise him properly as to not have any aggressive tendencies. He loves to lick you to pieces and my moms Margaret is his girlfriend. You should definitely not be scared, they are great dogs and love people!

Thank you much for the nice comment about the house! Its getting there slowly. Trying to muster the motivation to get shit done haha. I hope you are having a great day! xo <3

Anonymous said...

..how fragile life is and so beautiful how fragile lives meet and share poetic touching words with one another.

Ces said...

I sent you the 3 dancing girls!

Sheeanna said...

Hey you! Well the skullie board is one giant piece of super thin layered plywood i found next to a dumpster long ago. I painted the blocks on and then made a stencil and put a skully in each box. I then recruited people I know or met randomly that came to my house to paint one. I probably painted 4 or 5 myself, the rest are by everyone else. I also have a board of cupcakes which is the same basic concept.

Yeah I definitely want to start an Etsy shop. Right now I am trying to build up some stuff to actually sell haha. I get attached to artwork and dont wanna give it up. I like that my artwork makes people happy and most of the time I paint just to give it away.

I am feeling well. Things have been much less tressful since we moved. Of course there are always those moments but overall I am doing well. Mr. Beefy helps to keep me in good spirits and I have you and all of the amazing bloggers who help keep me going every day. <3 Lots of love. xo

Sheeanna said...

Yeah I love the cupcake board too! Its just not even close to being finished. It was too hard to get all the paint out and have the board down for people to paint at the old house, so hopefully now that I will have an art room to myself it will get finished! Im working on a couple new paintings and should have those posted soon :)

TheChicGeek said...

I'm so sorry for Bella's loss. I will lift some prayers up for your friend. The words you have left for her are beautiful...

Sheeanna said...

Yeah I am uber excited about the art room. Whenever it gets set up that is lol! You are too sweet Renee I just wanna hug you and squeeze you! We try to keep it together. I got lucky when I met her, shes more responsible than I am and she just turned 20 hahaha.

Kate said...


Sorry for your friends loss. I love the poem so beautiful.

Ces said...

I hope you post regarding the dancing girls.

A Cuban In London said...

My thoughts are with your friend. Many thanks. Beautiful but sad post.

Greetings from London.

Michelle said...

Left you a pressie at mine....dont think you have it, but you may well do :)


rochambeau said...

Prayers for Bella and you and her family. I will look up and think of your sweet friend tonight!


TheKeyBunch said...

What a lovely string of words!My thoughts are with you and Bella, and Bella's other family too.

The poem's reference to the stars being future children reminded me of the Partly Cloudy video from Pixar. It's about the clouds making everybody's little ones (puppies, kittens, baby gators, baby humans, etc) A must-watch! Look for it on youtube, as I don't have the link handy.

Take care, Renee!


Draffin Bears said...

Hi Renee,

We have all got to know and love the beautiful Bella.

When I heard the news I was so very very sorry and sad.
She has been in my thoughts ever since.
My prayers are with Bella, Nona and Emma and may they find strength and courage to get through this difficult time.


Stepping off the edge said...

My thoughts to you and Bella. A friend's loss is as heartbreaking as your own. Blessings to you both.
:o) Tracey

kj said...

g'night renee. it's another day and the sun and the moon both came out.

ps deborah's flying bird must be exhausted by now.. :)

love love

Ces said...

Hello darling Renee,

How are you tonight? I hope the stars shine brightly for you, never should they be dimmed, for life goes on.

I hope our dearest Bella has had her "closure and is at peace" and "for the most part" I hope she is "doing well" and may her "girls" be "strong."

And may Oz sleep well in "his hotel"


Anonymous said...

I don't just call you sweet Renee for nothing...you are so sweet to me and to so many others....look at your blog...a powerful magnet.

Polly said...

It's so difficult to find consolation in times like these, but this poem does bring some hope... my prayers are with Bella.

Mickey said...

Bella With heartfelt sympathy to your family and your husbands family.

At a time like this I always think of the story told to me by my sister, about when someone passes away it is like he is on a boat coasting in the water and his family and friends are on the shore crying that they don't want him to leave them, but in the distance around the bend is another shore where perhaps other family and friends who left before him are all happy and cheering when they see his boat coming and they are getting all excited and saying HERE HE COMES HERE HE COMES.

Bella I personally always pray that that will be a true story and if it is not I find some comfort in believing it is and I hope you do to.

Wishing you and your family peaceful memories of your loved husband.

Sincerely Mickey

Renee said...

Thanks for the reminder Mickey.

Love you lots. Renee xoxoxo

Bella Sinclair said...

My darling Renee,

Thank you for your love, your support, your gentle embrace, your twinkling stars. Thank you to everyone who offered their warm thoughts and prayers. I felt each and every one of them with deep gratitude. Each day gets easier, and our move has kept me too busy to get lost in grief. My girls keep me moving forward.

I love you dearly. Thank you.


L.Holm said...

My love and prayers to Bella. Am so sorry.