Monday, 31 August 2009
Years ago Wahid and I were talking and I said to him “You have never seemed to care what other people think of you.” He said ‘That is because I look at myself from the inside out, not the outside in.’
Stay focused on what is important.
Flashbacks From The Month Of August
August 11, 2002
*I would rate my body esteem a ‘3’. I have taken all of my cultures body messages to heart. I need to stop buying into society’s attitude and start buying into self-acceptance.
*I am not trying to stop time as far as my body goes. I spend no money and no time on keeping myself looking young.
August 21, 2002
*I do not covet other people’s lives.
August 13, 2003
*I do absolutely no exercise and I don’t feel connected to my own body. I need to add activities to my life.
August 4, 2004
*If I believed that I was feeding my soul and not just my body I would be more aware of what I am putting into it. I would never just jam my soul with just anything like I do with my body.
August 6, 2006
August 16, 2006
*Dr. Dubroska gave me the results of the CT scan. Good – great news. Cancer is no longer in the lungs. Cancer is no longer in the glands in the sternum. Improvement in bones everywhere, except Nodule 9 in the back. No change to the breast area and wondering if I should start radiation but she decided I needed to keep on the chemo instead.
Seems so funny to me now that I ever gave a shit about that crap.
What a huge waste. Invest your life energy on the people you love because in the end they are all that matter.