Wednesday, 21 October 2009
Wednesday's Women No. 36
I lay down and thought of what I was teaching my daughter and I knew that no matter what; I had to get out.
I thought of my past and what brought me to this point in my life. I thought of the childhood home I grew up in and how I knew then that mine would not be like that. I knew that I would never ever live like that. Or at least that is what I thought I knew.
As the unsaid thoughts pummeled my chest I knew that I should never have believed him. I knew deep inside that I was brave enough and that, it in fact did hurt me more than it hurt him.
It is a terrible day, actually it is a terrible life when you know that because of how you were raised and because of what you believed about yourself you became less than who you would have been because of fear. And worse your children have now got that enemy in their heads too.
I have made mistakes but I will not make anymore. I should have done it alone and now I will. I was not strong enough then, but I am strong enough now.
My dear friend Sophia reminded me that October is National Domestic Violence Awareness month and so I wrote the above piece for Wednesday’s Women hoping that maybe it will touch a cord somewhere for someone.
The following signs of abuse have been taken from Sophia’s blog at http://bluechairdiary.blogspot.com/2009/10/did-you-know-that-october-is-national.html :
Signs of abuse:
Criticize or put down.
Ignore or put down your opinions and/or accomplishments.
Blames you and everyone else for their abusive behaviour.
Accepts no fault.
Has unrealistic expectations.
Physically harms you and/or your children (hit, punch, kick, slap, etc.)
Calls you names and/or curses your and/or your children.
Extremely moody – Dr. Jekyl/Mr. Hyde.
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